1.Eric
It was a June it was June it was a June
I'm echoing a poem in my empty room
Can't talk about it because I don't have to
But it harms my being because I only fall through
I wrapped my body with the coldest pillow I had
I've stopped eating since I fell for him
My relationship with my body was paused so I could rewind what we had
We were sending emojis which got me so delighted
A happy kid , a teenage rage
I smiled so hard my ribs had to ache
I've sent a voice message blushing in secret
I was convinced that I was loved like those before me
I was convinced that I was so happy
But he said he said he said
I can't recall it
But I know I know for sure
That it made it all unfair
His words his words his words
Always yearning to be saidI can't believe I'm dating you
We look so silly tooA joke a joke a joke
And I puke and work and work
Build a body I had lost because of you
Then I cried knowing I'm trying to please you2.Sally
" everybody moved on "
" I stayed there "
" I'm right where you left me "
- Taylor swiftThis is not a love story nor a self love journey , this is me telling myself that I've been stabed in the back multiple times and what was in the air that got me so hooked on him ? His eyes so inviting and his neck terribly revealing spots where I was supposed to leave hickeys with his lips pursed and his warrior looking-like silhouette , he wasn't that muscular but I thought he'd lift mountains for me , who wouldn't?
She started speeding up , the car that I referred to it by " she " because she smelt like strawberries and I see things with colours , pink and white that's why the vehicle felt like but th feeling that got me after that burned .
Red and oceanic blue kind of burning.
About the car thing, I do have a car , I don't drive it that much I fear to become like my father ." he was in a mental hospital " the mother confessed focusing on the road with her hands grabbing the steering wheel .
" What ? " I could only gasp feeling my teeth shaking a little bit as an announcement of a near urge to puke .
" There was an accident . Had he ever mentioned a guy named ' Ethan ' ?"
The conversations I had with Eric were few and i digged deeper through the memory but no Ethan came to surface so I just said " No , I suppose not "
Well yes . I remembered.
" they were in the car, he - he never faced it nor admitted it , it hurts me to see him like that "
Like what ?
Her lips trembled and so did my legs , I placed my hands between my thoughts just to focus more .
" what happend ?" I asked , looking at myself in the rearview mirror .
" my husband and I assured to provide him the safest place for getting better . With proper help , guidance , medication "
" medication ? " my hands moved to my hair finding something to pull .
" What is important to know is , that he is not mentally stable to - "
" to what , just spit it out "
" To love, to function like a human being , how could he live without knowing who he really is , what really happened , it's like constantly walking on egg shells , constantly begging for fresh air , for an escape "
I had my arms crossed around my stomach and I had one last thing to know " What happened to Ethan ? "
" It was a mistake , it was a mistake "
She started skipping red lights and driving faster my head turned and like a broken CD it felt like she was was in a scene , rehearsing the words and i wondered if she was in desperate need to convince me that it was a mistake or to convince herself .
And as the windows started to shiver , I yelled " Stop the DAMN car , now "
She starred at me apologetically, wiping her tears , fixing her hair , I grabbed the door handle , and when her lips moved , I pushed my head out of the car , had my throat itching , I gagged then puked it all .
He died in a car crash .
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Mystery / ThrillerThey were three , the poet , the simger and the actress . their backstories and their similar glimpses of facing pain and heartbreak got them tied up in a rollercoaster of love , fear and revenge . who will fall first ? who will pretend ? who died...