Haters

Chapter 29

The break was chaotic.
Dudley is bullying me and Harry with his friends.
I didn't hear anything from Mattheo.
And Harry used magic against a dementor that was here in the muggle world.
He had to go to the ministry.
Lucky for him Dumbledore knows Voldemort is back and he saved Harry from everything.
So he isn't expelled.
Now we are back at Hogwarts and we have a new DADA teacher.
Again.....
This time it's Dolores Umbridge.
She is a women from the ministry and she is a bitch.
She hates love hates children and she actually hates everything.....
Mattheo still doesn't talk to me.
I feel like shit I just want to talk to Mattheo I love him and I need him.
I decided to go to his dorm maybe that works.
"Mattheo?" I ask.
After three times asking and still no answers I walked in and saw no one was there.
I searched the whole school and when I found him I actually wished I didn't.
Mattheo Riddle the only boy that I loved was fucking my best friend in a classroom.
Pansy knew I liked Mattheo and now she was having sex with him.
Such a good friend note the sarcasm.
At this exact moment I wasn't even sad I was just angry at both of them.
How could I ever think Mattheo really loved me I'm such fucking stupid.
And what I did after seeing what I saw I'm going to regret for my whole life.
I walked away.
Why didn't I fucking do something.
I guess I was way to confused but I could have at least scream at them.
But I didn't I just walked away like coward.
The astronomy tower was the first place I was thinking of to go to.
I walked to the astronomy tower crying and I sat down looking at the sky.
At this time I wish I didn't promise Harry to not hurt myself again.
But I did and I never break a promise.

~later~

I was stil sitting at the astronomy tower and after a while Mattheo walked in.
"Go away I was here first" I say.
"So? You are the one who hurted me remember?" He says.
"Oh yeah I hurted you huh I didn't saw that a few hours ago" I say.
"What are you talking about?" He asks.
"Go ask Pansy" I say while walking away.

Mattheo's pov:
"Go ask Pansy" she says.
And that's when it hit me y/n saw us.
I felt like shit I didn't love Pansy I love y/n.
And to be really honest I don't why I had sex with her.
Maybe I just wanted to forget y/n for a second.
She said it herself we can't ever be together.
But now her friendship with Pansy is ruined aswel I think.
I don't think she can ever forgive one of us not me and not Pansy.
I never hated myself more then today I just had sex with the best friend of the girl I love the most in the world.
I'm such a monster maybe Harry was right maybe I am like my father.

Y/n's pov:
I was mad and I did what most people do when they are.
Get in a fight.
I walked to my dorm that soon wouldn't be my dorm anymore.
Well at least I thought.
"I trusted you Pansy I actually thought you were a friend but I could have known your fake!" I scream.
"Y/n calm down what are you talking about?" She asks.
"What do you fucking think think I am talking about!" I say.
"Please stop screaming" she says.
"You didn't stop screaming when Mattheo was fucking you!" I say.
She looks at me shocked she knew this wasn't going to end well for her this time.
"Y/n that's not what it looked like I promise" she says.
"Pansy shut up! You knew exactly what you were doing!
And you know what the truth is that you are just a fucking whore!!" I scream at her.
She starts crying and she doesn't say anything.
"Fucking coward!
You fuck the only person I ever loved except Harry and you are the one crying?!" I scream.
She doesn't answer and I couldn't hold back I was furious so I did something that was the worst thing ever.
I use the cruciatus curse on her.
And the worst of all was that I didn't even care