Haters

Chapter 31

~next month~

Today Harry asked me to join Dumbledores army.

Something to train our skills to fight against the dark side.
I didn't want that I would train alone.
I didn't want to get bossed around by Harry so I said I didn't feel so good the last few weeks.
And I actually didn't even lie about it.
The last few weeks I felt like shit.
Pansy went to Snape to tell what happened.
And today I had to go have a talk with him so I was heading to his classroom.
"Hello professor" I say while walking in.
"Miss potter what did you do?" He asks.
"I'm sorry" I say while looking down.
"I'm not mad I'm just confused about this I won't tell anyone but you will receive some detention" he says.
Damn I'm lucky.
"I was mad at Pansy" I say.
"Yeah I noticed that the cruciatus curse isn't nothing" he says.
"To me it actually is" I say.
"What do you mean with that?" He asks.
"When Voldemort returned at the graveyard we had a battle and we both used the same spell" I say.
"The killing curse" he says.
"Yes" I say.
"Miss potter we will talk about that later but you and Pansy were best friends right?" He asks.
"Yes we were" I answer.
"Why not anymore? The whole story please" he asks.
"I told Pansy that I was in love with Mattheo.
That I never felt like this for anyone before and that I wished we could be together and that he would forgive me.
She told me she understood it and that she would be there for me.
I trusted her I thought she was being real with me.
But I was wrong she lied just like everyone else.
I was looking for Mattheo I wanted to apologize again I wanted to talk with him.
He wasn't in his dorm so I was looking through the school.
And I found him in a classroom.
He was fucking Pansy.
I don't know why I ever thought he loved me but what I do know is that it was all fake.
Both of them were fake.
And Pansy stayed crying when I confronted her later in our dorm.
I got even more mad cause she was acting like the victim.
Even tho when I wasn't the one who fucked the person she loves.
She wasn't the victim I was.
But she was acting like it so I wanted to make her the victim I wanted to give her a reason to cry" I say.
"Maybe you don't believe me miss potter but I understand you" he says.
"I want to tell you something but you have to swear not to tell anyone no one understand?" He asks me.
"I promise professor" I say.
"When I was younger I fell in love aswel.
With a girl and I had the same as you had I thought she loved me.
We both went to Hogwarts but we got into different houses.
She met someone else someone better.
She never payed attention to me anymore and that guy she liked was bullying me.
And she knew that she tried to stop him once but it didn't help.
She knew he kept doing it but she didn't do anything.
I knew she didn't love me I knew it.
But I always kept loving her.
One day when we were older, 15 years ago I knew someone would attack her.
I asked Dumbledore to help but he didn't do it.
He thought she was safe but I knew she wasn't.
I knew it.
And that's when she died lord Voldemort killed her.
I still knew she didn't love me but I never stopped loving her.
I will always love her" he says.
He takes a deep breath and I keep listening to him.
"11 years after her death her children came to Hogwarts.
And every time I see the girl and the boy I think of her.
The boy has her eyes.
And the girl her smile.
That's I want to give you this advice.
Never give up on the one you love y/n.
Never because I know for sure that Mattheo loves you back.
And you can't believe me that's okay but don't do things you will regret.
You two will end up together I guess the both of you are just confused" he says.
"Professor the women you are talking about.
That's my mother isn't it?
Lily?" I ask him.
"Yes y/n the women is your mother" he says.
"I'm sorry professor I didn't knew you had to go through this no one ever should feel that way" I say.
"Don't give up on him y/n" he says.
"I won't Professor I love him and I will always keep loving him" I say.