𝚍𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚢 ❀ 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚜, d.m.

₁₈. 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚣𝚎𝚗

before i could let blake do anything else to me, i kneed him in his groin and broke free from his grasp. i stumbled out of the bathroom as he shrieked in pain and ran to one of the dorm rooms, slamming the door and locking it. once again, i fell to the floor and cried for what seemed like hours. but in reality, only a few minutes had passed. i wasn't sure if the group in the hot tub had realized i was gone for so long but either way, i didn't care. i wanted to be in my dorm. i wanted to just hide under my covers and forget what had just happened to me. but i was too scared to even move. i was frozen. until i heard a knock on the door. i didn't respond. i just sat there in silence.

"it's draco," i heard from the other side of the door, "i just want to make sure you're okay."

i didn't quite know why but i decided to let him in. i guess i just wanted someone to comfort me.

when he walked in, he noticed i had been crying.

"w– what happened to you?" he asked worriedly.

and i knew he was worried. there was worry written all over his face.

i didn't say anything to him because i just couldn't. i just broke down right in front of draco. and all he did was wrap his arms tightly around me and pull me close to him. part of me was embarrassed for crying like this in front of him but part of me was relieved he was there for me when nobody else was. after about a few moments, we both pulled away and he stared emotionally at me.

"you don't have to tell me what happened," he assured me, "but if you want to, i'm right here. do you understand?"

he cupped my face in his hands and pierced me with his icy blue eyes. i should have hated him. but i knew i couldn't. i cared for him. i couldn't exactly explain it but i just knew he meant something to me. maybe it was because he cared. it was something i just couldn't shake off.

i became overwhelmed by emotions and grabbed draco's face and kissed him hard. i wasn't thinking of aiden or anyone else. only draco. but he broke off from the kiss to stare at me.

"this isn't you– you wouldn't kiss me– you're dating aiden," he innocently said, "what's wrong? you can tell me anything."

i stared into his eyes again. i knew i shouldn't have kissed him. i was dating aiden. but all i really wanted was him.

"it– it was–" i stuttered, "i almost got–"

i sighed, "b– blake– he tried to–"

but i could sense draco already knew what i was trying to say.

"i'm going to murder him." he firmly stated.

"no! i don't want you to get suspended or expelled! please don't do anything!" i hollered.

he stared at me, his eyes becoming teary, "i can't let him get away with that. you could have been raped. i can't let that happen to you, ivy."

i stared at him, eyes widened, "draco, i—"

i grabbed his right hand with mine and stared back up at him, longingly. he had no idea how badly i wanted him.

i let go of his hand, "i— i should go. leo's waiting. goodbye."

"g— goodbye." he responded as i left the dorm room.

i quickly walked through the living room area, past everyone in the hot tub.

"ivy— are you okay? what happened?" i heard molly ask.

i turned back to her and faked a smile, "n— nothing. i just— the alcohol isn't sitting well with me. i better go."

"oh— ok then." she replied.

i quickly left the common room and went to go find leo in our common room. i walked into the common room and saw leo sitting on the couch in front of the fireplace, reading out of a potions textbook.

"you're back early," he mentioned, "did you have a good time?"

i looked at him with misery and said nothing more. i ran to him and hugged him as tightly as i possibly could. his arms twisted around me and he squeezed me back.

"ivy—" he worriedly expressed, "what happened?"

"this guy—" i weeped and pulled away to look at him, "he tried to— force himself on me."

"i thought it was an all-girls hot tub party."

"i thought so too." i sighed.