𝚍𝚒𝚛𝚝𝚢 ❀ 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚜, d.m.

₁₉. 𝚒 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞

the day after the hot tub party, i realized i didn't feel the same way about aiden. i guess the spark between us had just died. or maybe i felt like he had changed. i also kept in mind that draco was occupying my thoughts. but i still felt like i would be an awful person for breaking up with aiden. so i kept silent and stayed with him. after my potions class, he was waiting outside.

"how was class?" he inquired, slipping his hand around my waist.

"as it always is– boring." i responded.

he stopped me in the middle of the hallway and put his hand on my shoulder, staring directly at me mischievously, "you wanna meet at my dorm tonight?"

i knew what he wanted. he wanted to hook up again. but it had become such a habit that i didn't really find it as exciting or as enjoyable as i used to.

"i– i've got a lot to study for..." i lied, hoping he would drop the conversation.

"come on, ivy," he groaned, "don't be such a buzzkill. am i not hot enough for you?"

"no, no, you're hot– i just–"

"okay then. i'll see you tonight. my dorm." he grinned, walking away from me.

i knew that aiden and i weren't really working much anymore. all he ever wanted was to hook up. and when he didn't, he would use me to brag to his friends about his "hot girlfriend." i hated how aiden made me feel like an object. but i just couldn't understand how our entire relationship had gone downhill so rapidly. at first, aiden was an angel. he cared about me or at least that's what it seemed like.

"tonight's the night. i'm breaking up with him." i told leo while putting on my eyeliner.

"ugh, finally. i've been waiting for this forever." he admitted, "now, it's time to move on to the guy you actually like– draco."

i grinned, "okay, slow it down a bit. i get the feeling draco's been avoiding me. and i'm not sure why."

"let me think," leo paused, "oh, maybe it's because you're dating an objectifying, possessive dickhead."

i rolled my eyes, "okay, i better go."

"are you sure you'll be okay?" leo earnestly asked, "i'm worried about what his reaction will be."

"i'll be fine, leo." i responded, closing the door and beginning to walk to the slytherin common room.

once i arrived, he greeted me with a sly smirk plastered on his face and told me to come in. we both went into his room, which smelled like weed, and he immediately began kissing my neck from behind me.

"i missed you." he uttered softly, still kissing my neck.

"aiden–" i murmured.

"what?" he faintly whispered with his chin resting on my shoulder.

"we need to talk." i continued.

he lifted his head, stood in front of me, and crossed his arms, "about what?"

"about us." i paused as he stared at me blankly.

i went on, "you make me feel like i'm an object sometimes."

he scoffed, "how? all i've given you is my love and affection."

"it's always about sex, aiden. i feel like that's all our relationship is based on. that's all you want from me."

"you're wrong."

"no, i'm not. the only person in the wrong here is you. i don't just want sex, aiden. i want a real relationship. i told you about william. now, you're doing the same as he did. i think it's best we part ways."

"but i love you!" he shouted, tears forming in his eyes.

"you can find someone else to love."

"i can't love anyone else if i only love you." he breathed, crying.

i didn't know how to react but i couldn't help but feel sorry for him.

he walked up to me slowly and grabbed both of my hands.

"please. give me another chance." he delicately pleaded, with his teary eyes looking into mine.

i couldn't say no. i couldn't refuse. maybe it was because i saw aiden was broken. and he just needed someone to pick up his pieces and put them together.

i squeezed his hands back, "okay."