Life After You / Yizhan fanfic book2

chapter 12

Xiao Zhan's P.O.V

You can't keep your emotions in track when you're pregnant.

That's one thing I hate about being pregnant the most.

Lately, everything I do or say is out of order.

Soon enough Yibo will get tired of me.

And why thinking about it is making me sad.

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I don't know why but I've been waiting for yibo to return home.

Probably tonight was one of those nights where I feel lonely, like I need someone by my side, I need someone who would listen to me.

Now that I think about it, I only have yibo to rely on.

And somehow he took longer than other days to return home.

I wondered if he went out to party with other girls again.

And just thinking about it I got angry.
He said he would take care of me but where is he now when I need him?

After a moment.....
I heard the sound of yibo's car outside.

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"So you were at the party?" I said trying to sound normal but miserably failing.

"Zhan GE. You still haven't went to bed" he asked.

"Why does it matter?" At this point I'm totally sounding mad.

"Zhan ge, I texted you saying that I had work load today which needed to be taken care of as soon as possible so I had to stay a little longer than usual." He said.

"So you weren't at the party?" I asked again doubting him.

"I was at work Zhan ge, you should take care of yourself don't stay up late for no reason" he said.

"Can you hug me for once?" I blurted out without thinking much.

My intention was to see if he actually were out with some girls. This might sounds perverted but i wanted to take a quick sniff.

What the fuck is going on my head? I haven't even agreed to date him.

He was a bit surprised.

"Don't take it as if I really want to hug you because I like you. I was just feeling like I need a little comfort so I kinda was waiting for you" I explained.

What? Did I just admit I was waiting for him.

"O-kay forget it. You must be tired. I'm going to bed---"

I said and was about to flee when he suddenly hugged me.

"I know you'd have a lot of mood swings throughout the day maybe I should be by your side most of the time. And that's why I want us to date already zhan Ge" he said while stroking my head gently.

Why does this guy making feel like I'm the younger one here again?

"Forget about dating me. Go find someone else maybe." With that I pushed him and rushed towards my room.
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And now it's Making me feel restless about what did I just said to him.
What if really decided to give up on dating me.
It's not like I've never thought about accepting his dating request.
But I'm scared of something, I can't quite put my fingers on it. Maybe, I'm scared of what people might think, or Maybe I'm scared because if I start dating him yien in my heart will be forgotten. Or maybe because I don't want to feel the pain of loving someone else anymore.