Got Me Captive (Got Me #1) | ✓

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The sky was grey and disconcerting as if it was fighting about what definite color to project whether billowed dark or light because of its unknown tons. The deafening silence is the only thing I can be able to entertain. Like it's containing something for so long, it's now ready to rupture for an overwhelming climate.

Sa kabilang seat ng akin ay ang pinsan ko lang. He would talk to me but I would only respond with one word to each question he asks.

An hour after that savage talk with Gunther, everything became barren. Isang oras matapos iyon ay dumating na rin sila Anakin at sa oras rin na iyon ay tapos na akong ilabas lahat. Gunther left me with them. Hindi niya na muli ako nagawang tignan na para bang nandidiri siya sa akin.

I gave Anakin my gift to Thorn but I told him not to mention me. The last thing the kid needs is to think I am the best to be a friend. His father was right. I hurt him and now I could possibly hurt Thorn.

The last thing I knew, I was already in this lifeless seat. Looking outside like a moron waiting for something miraculous to appear out of nowhere. The time in this plane seems ceaseless. Mahigit sampung oras pa ang hihintayin bago makarating.

Dumako ang tingin ko sa teleponong hawak ko. Gunther's missed calls and inbox were projected on the screen. Mula nitong umaga ay puros na iyon ulan ng mensahe niya. Hindi ko naman agawang tignan maski isa rito dahil iyon rin ang plano. Ganoon na lang ang dismaya sa sarili ko nang maisip na sana ay sinagot ko na.

Like a wishful thinker, I hoped for a minute I could leave the pain in every country we passed by. Leave it there to free me from this unforeseen burden I personally inflicted on myself because of haughtiness.

I hoped that like a time on different continents, this pain changes and eventually disappears as we cross the vast seas to travel to another.

But that's absurd.

Consequences be damned. It whispered. I scoffed at my own brain. It's siding with my torment. How dare it?

Napasulyap ako sa attendant nang maglagay ito ng tea sa baso ko. I stared at her as she smiled at me. She's pretty. Hindi ko iyon sinuklian tsaka ibinalik lang ang tingin sa bintana.

"We already prepared your house. Are you staying there tonight?" rinig kong tanong ni Eros.

"I already told Kareen about that beforehand, yes," I indifferently said.

Hindi ko makita ang reaksyon ng pinsan ko at wala naman akong intensyon na alamin pa iyon. Nakatunghay lang ako sa mamarak na tanawin sa labas. Na para bang magiging payapa ang kalooban ko rito.

"Are you bringing Xanti with you? It's been a while since he's been there," he kept the conversation going.

"Who else would I be there with, Detrómitos?"

He's consistent on keeping me up. Bakit? Hindi ko rin alam. Siguro ay dahil hini niya pa ako naasaksihang maging nasa ganitong sitwasyon. Like a lifeless heartbroken fish swept from the ocean.

He cleared his throat. "Alright."

Another thrumming silence. Tatayo lang ako ng upuan roon para pumunta ng restroom at babalik lang rin. Namamanhid na ang puwit ko roon kakaupo sa tila walang katapusang oras.

If this isn't torturous enough, I don't know what is.

The flashback of Gunther's face kept on retorting my mind. Funny how some goodbyes are indeed the worst. I could've sorted things out with him for the last time, pero ayon ang naging desisyon ko, na hayaan siyang kasuklaman ako.

Which is an even advantage on his part considering the things I said with this impulsive mouth of mine. Nanliliit rin ako sa mga sinabi ko sa kaniya. Kapag nanunumbalik sa akin ang bawat salitang sinasabi ko ay nagmimistulan iyong insulto.