~~~CHAPTER THREE~~~

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I didnt spare them a glance nor an explanation I just went behind them and got out of there

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I didnt spare them a glance nor an explanation I just went behind them and got out of there. Maybe I was just not used to seeing those types of men, properly groomed, SUIT UP, and all of that. Its not like imma see him again.

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Scrolling through job posts on my laptop, hearting at those of interest. But one, in particular, struck my interest. 'Solace' sounds so successful. They have an opening for social media marketers and personal social manager. Imma just apply for both. Heart that as well. I continued to search through Jobs near my location in total I found twelve and imma apply for all hoping to get called and interviewed for most of them. With that thought, I closed my eyes.

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I woke up to silence, kind of feels weird but I like it. No Arrieala screaming at Hadrian no bickering, no laughing absolutely no nothing. But then it dawned on me that they went out to get college supplies. I did my morning routine and head downstairs to make a cup of coffee and blueberry pancake. I made just enough for myself to fill me until noon.

I need to completely settle in and that's exactly what imma do, pack out the remaining clothes along with the ones our aunt bought for us and the ones I bought. I gotta also run out to the mall to get a handbag, which I had totally forgotten about. I also need some light makeup and colognes.

I guess that flowers aren't just used for big apologies

I guess I should've been more conscious how you spoke to me

'Cause when we'd fight, you'd give me space and not communicate

And for a while I thought that's what I should appreciate

The song 'Flowers' by Lauren Spencer blasted throughout my room, I had to sing along.

Maybe I was holding onto what I thought you were

But when you think too hard, eventually it starts to hurt

The version of you in my head, now I know wasn't true

Young people fall for the wrong people, guess my one was you.

I could not relate to the lyrics though, throughout my twenty-one-plus years alive I never allowed anyone to get too close to me; relationship wish. I kept my goals clear, allowing no distractions. I refuse to fall for the same cycle over and over where young girls become pregnant and can not provide for their child or children, and constantly have to depend on parents or loves ones who speak behind their backs about misfortune and disgrace whom You would have brought on yourselves.

Obviously, a child is a blessing and even though they had one early I think, that child gave them strength and motivation to make it through all obstacles in life. But above all baby fever, I prefer to provide for my child without having to think about how am I going to buy their next feeding. Most teenage pregnancies happen with the males being young also and some disown that child and the responsibilities. I guess I can say I'm afraid of not being financially stable enough to care for a child and myself if things go sideways in the relationship. So I stayed away from them.

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