Ruin My Life

Chapter 5

London's POV

The silence is deafening, hindi pa rin nawawala ang bakas ng gulat sa kanyang mukha. Mas lalo nya akong nilapitan, her hand slowly met my face and she caress is it so gently as if anytime I'll break. Her eyes shimmers under the light. Her eyes never left my orbs.

I was expecting something big, something that will make my heart flatter or Kahit hahaplos sa puso ko pag nakita ko sya. Ngayon na kaharap ko sya ay nag eexpect ako na may mararamdaman ako na kahit konti, but wala talaga, she feels as if she's just a random stranger passing by.

The spark that I felt before-- it's gone, I don't feel anything nakakapanibago. Ganito ba talaga when feelings fade? She's now a stranger, hindi bumibilis ang tibok ng puso ko. I feel disappointed.

"Your hair has grown a little longer, you look more mature, you've grown taller.---Your eyes just I remember, Your ar ---" Hindi na nya natapos ang sasabihin nya ng may tumawag sakin. She quickly retrieve her hand and look away.

"Lavie! You're here lang pala, I was looking everywhere for kanina ka pa namin hinihintay sa table magsasalita na si daddy" Hope says rushing unto me.

"I didn't know na may kausap ka pala, sorry" pagsasalita nya ng makita nya sa Vian.

"It's nice seeing you again, Alianovna, excuse me I have to go." She quickly leaves. Not looking back, halos Madapa na sya sa kanyang paglalakad. My eyes never left her frame until sa tuluyan na syang mawala sa paningin ko.

"Let's go" at hinila na nya ko papunta sa table namin.

"Darling, come seat next to me" pagyaya ni Allyson in which I oblige.

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Natapos na magsalita si tito and everyone is just socializing and making the most of the party. Dumating na din ang kambal na Kamino na sina Kazmir at Elison.

"Sorry na late kami, nadelay kasi flight namin" paliwanag ni Kazmir

"Nakita din namin sila Cara at Evaha, kasabay namin silang dumating."pahabol ni Elis

Nanlaki ang mga mata nila ng mapansin nila ako sa tabi Allyson.

"LONDON!!" sabay na sigaw ng kambal at dali dali nila akong niyakap. Halos mawalan na ko ng hininga sa higpit ng yakap nila sakin.

"Kailan ka pa nandito? Bat---"

"I miss you br--"

"kamusta ka na, ang la--"

"grabe nagbago ka--"

Sabay sabay silang nagsasalita at wala na akon naiintindihan.

"Can you guys take it easy? Isa isa lang pwede? di na nya kayo naiintindihan" iritableng pagsuway ni Hope.

"You didn't tell me that you're very popular here, darling" Allyson spoke out of nowhere and snaked her left arm around my waist.

"She's pretty, who are you?" napalingon kaming anim sa pinagmulan ng boses. Cara

Cara and Evaha are now walking towards us in elegance, mas lalo pa silang gumanda, tumangkad din at mas humubog pa ang katawan nila.

" Girls! naka punta kayo!" bati ni Hope at bineso ang mga ito.

"Hindi mo man lang ba kami kakamustahin ni Cara? After all bigla ka nalang nawala. Wala ka man lang pasintabi" pagtataray ni Evaha.

"Oo nga, hindi ka man lang tumawag kahit message lang-- parang wala naman tayong pinagsamahan" dagdag ni Cara at inirapan pa ko

Deserve ko naman yung inis at galit na meron sila sakin, hindi ko man lang sila inisip nung umalis ako. Hindi din naman magandang rason na nakalimutan ko o kaya busy dahil imposible naman na busy ako ng buong 3 years, deserve nila ang isang malinis at maayos na explanation and that's what I'll give.

I explained why I left 3 years ago, pero hindi ko sinabi na si Vian ang tinutukoy ko, mahirap na baka magkagulo Lalo na't may pagka warfreak pa naman ang magpinsan na ito.

"I'll just grab a refill, darling care to join me?" paalam ni Allyson.

I joined her on getting her refill.

"Why didn't you tell them?" Allyson asked out of nowhere.

"Tell them about what exactly?"

"Your ex was the one you were talking to earlier."

Napakunot ako ng noo sa sinabi nya. Nakita nya kami sa patio ni Vian, bakit hindi sya lumapit? bakit nagkunwari sya na hindi nya alam kung nasaan ako?

"I saw you earlier at the patio, I was suppose to come get you but I realized you were talking to someone. I heard you call her name and it's not my place to invade your private moment. I saw how close she was to you. So I just watched you watch her."

"Why didn't you just come and get me?"

"Darling, I'm selfish but I'm not that selfish that I'll takeaway your right for a closure, for anything at all that can give you relief. You needed that encounter and you know it London, besides what am I going to say to her? 'hi, I'm Allyson and I'm banging London, your ex--oh and I know you were the one watching us make out earlier. I'm also her friend, bestfriend'"

"What the fuck is your problem?! Can't you just let it go? Can't I just keep things to myself? What the fuck?! what the fuck? what in the actual fuck Allyson!? Can't you just fucking call me? There's no need to be fucking extra!" hindi ko alam bakit bigla ako naging irritable na napagtaasan ko pa ng boses si Allyson, I'm not one to raise voices.

She was taken aback by sudden outburst, mukhang iiyak na sya. Nawala yung inis ko bigla. What the fuck just happened? ang babaw ng usapan tapos bigla ang nainis, napagbuntungan ko pa si Allyson. I know she's only looking for me, what I did was a dick move.

"I'm so sorry, Ally. FUCK! I didn't know what came over me" I said and close the remaining gap between us. She hugged me and I can feel her lips quiver from my neck. FUCK I can now hear her low whimpers.

I took Allyson to my room. It was quiet dahil malayo ang kwarto ko sa party. Nakatalikod lang sya sakin pagpasok namin ng kwarto.

" Ally, please look at me. I'm sorry, I was a dick, I didn't know why I did what I did. I'm sorry please--Look at me please" pagsusumamo ko sa kanya.

Napansin ko na ang mabilis na pagtaas at baba ng balikat nya, I can hear her sniffles. She's crying, I've never made her cry. I fucked it up.

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko, ayaw din nya humarap sakin. So I did the only thing that felt right, I hugged her from behind and I whispering sweet nothings in her ear. We stayed like this for quite some time hanggang sa hinubad nya ang suot nyang dress, leaving nothing but her underwear.

"Don't worry I'm over it. I know you didn't mean it. Can we please just lay down?" she requested and laid on the bed.

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She was laying on top of me peacefully sleeping. I fucked it up. I was so stupid. Si Ally lang ang meron ako nung mga panahong nalulunod ako sa lungkot, lagi din syang may bitbit na chinese take out whenever she's coming over, she's one hell of a woman tapos nataasan ko pa sya ng boses.

Allyson's ex was an abusive, lying, manipulative, cheating bastard so I should've known better than to make her experience the shit that she once went through. Sa gandang angkin ni Allyson sino ang magaakala na mapupunta pala sya sa ganong klase ng basura.

A light knock was heard and was quickly followed by the opening of my door.

"Let's go na d--" hindi na natuloy ni Hope ang sasabihin nya ng mapansin nya ang itsura naming dalawa ni Allyson.

"What the fuck?"