Like a ruby flower (nickloon)

.Confusion.

AHHHH IM SO EXCITED TO WRITE THIS YOU DONT EVEN KNOW.
Sorry for posting this late!
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BALLOONS POV
10 AM

I turn off my alarm and I turn around to see nickel still asleep, he slept quietly and softly and by the looks of it his was having a good dream. I get up from my bed slowly, to not wake him up. As I'm walking, I trip over a cable and I hear something hit the floor, it make quite a load noise. With fear in my eyes a look over to nickel once more and praying that he doesn't wake up. But a few seconds later I hear him shuffling around and groaning.
"Balloon...is that..you?" He says in a tired voice, I mentally face palm myself. Oh come on did I have to wake him up, now he's probably get mad at me.
"Oh yeah sorry, you can go back to sleep nickel!"
"What time is it..?" Saying it in that same sloppy and tired voice, huh he didn't get mad at me? Odd.
"Uhm its..."I grab my phone and check the time "10:09" I say sheepishly
"Well it was anyway time for me to wake up" he says getting up from bed, I walk over to the bathroom to do my routine. After I'm done I unlock the bathroom so that nickel could use it, I go back and sit back down on my bed, Hm my dream was nice today, at least it wasn't another nightmare i was with nickel and he gave me that same ruby flower again. Why am I anyway getting dreams with nickel lately. Not like that's a bad thing, but it's just what happens in them. For example in this dream I nearly called him cute! What!? I don't even like nickel in that way, I think. I admit, I find him cute, at times BUT I DONT THINK I LIKE HIM AS A CRUSH.

I sigh, wait am I blushing? Why am I- no I must be imagining things, there is no way that I'm blushing because of nickel. Even if I like him (which I don't) I don't think I'm gay, or well I'm still questioning but I don't think I am? I mean maybe am I but like I don't like nickel or anything! It's too early to think about my sexuality right now. Back to dreams, I had another dream with nickel in it about a week ago..hm what was it about again? I think for a bit to refresh my memory. Oh right! It was that one when I heard nickel..say...he..uhm....liked me.

Oh right haha...I forgot about that. Why the hell did I even dream that ha ha? Dreams are just the unconscious but of my mind or something like that right? So does that mean my mind thinks I like nickel? Well I clearly don't! Ugh I'm just going back to the topic of my sexuality. Might as well think about it, hypothetically I would date nick- I mean a guy but I would also date any other genders to be honest. Ugh I don't know! This is way too complicated for me.

I think I'm like sick or something though, when I first got this dream I wasn't to bothered by it and now? IM LITERALLY QUESTIONING MY SEXUALLY OVER THIS! I just realised how much I'm blushing over this, STOP IT BALLOON. Okay no I'm just blushing out of embarrassment nothing else, nope. Oh wait why am I smiling, that really doesn't matter. I take a few deep breaths to calm down.
Click
The bathroom door swings open and nickel walks out, oh right. he lives here.
"Sup balloon"
"H-hey nickel" OH MY GOD WHY DID I STUTTER I WANT TO DIE RIGHT NOW. My 'embarrassment' from before comes back. He goes to sit down on his bed, we still had a few more minutes till breakfast is called.
"You good? You look a little..nervous, did something happen?" Crap he noticed, well of course he did i look like im shitting myself right now. Okay maybe not like that but you get the point, whyamiexplainingthistomyself-
"Yep! All good!" I smile awkwardly, a bit too wildly.
"Uhm okay then?" He sits back on his bed and just goes on his phone for a bit, I was just smiling, trying my best not to think about those thoughts
"So uh any dreams you had tonight?" I try to make conversation, obviously picking the first topic in mind.
"Oh yeah actually, I had this really nice dream about y- a really good friend of mine"
"What was it about?" Saying with my expression somewhat calming down. Or well at lest my blush was.
"Nothing really we just chatted the whole time, you?"
"I um, didn't have any tonight! Yeah" I try my best to lie, even though I didn't really have a reason to. Unfortunately, I'm a terrible liar
"Mhm yeah, and I have arms. Spill it"
"It was about nothing! Really!" I stare at him for a few seconds he raises an eyebrow at me, I get more nervous. I needed to get out. "Oh wow would you look at the time, it's time to eat! Bye nickel!" I respond in a hurry and leave the room before he got to say a word. Phew.