Please Love Me Again Siruis Black ×reader

Broken

                           Siruis Pov
As I said those words without thinking I saw the guys looking horrified behind me I turned to see what they were looking at my eyes widened it was Ivy looking broken here tears were falling "I-Ivy I-I didn't mean-" she run away before I can continue Remus ran after
her as I stood their lily came and slapped me hard  " you are an unemotional arse "  she said then ran after Ivy too

" You just ruined everything with your impulsiveness siruis " Peter said
As he  rubbed his head

" Thats why we didn't want to help you because everybody knew that Ivy loves you and that Remus didn't want to tell her about his feelings because he is afraid to ruin their friends it's only you and marlene who didn't knew and Ivy wanted to keep it that way but look what happened I knew you didn't like her but didn't expect from you this words " james said then he and Peter left the room
I sat there trying to process everything I said and done

                                Ivy Pov
When I heard Remus saying that he loves me and that I only loved siruis it made me feel guilty I thought that what I felt is the same what he felt but he kept comforting me without caring about his feelings lily was about to enter but I stopped here wanting to listen more

"I DONT CARE IF SHE LOVES ME I DONT LOVE HER I WILL NEVER LOVE HER I'D RATHER LOVE A CUNNING SLYTHERIN THEN LOVE HER SHE MEANS NOTHING EXCEPT MY GIRLFRIEND'S AND BEST FRIEND'S LOVER FRIEND" when siruis said those words I felt that my heart was taken out of my chest I couldn't control my tears as lily opened the door and the guys saw us they all looked at me siruis was about to say something but I ran away back to my room I heard Remus calling me but I didn't want to see anybody

Lily barged in seeing me crying while my face was buried in my pillow " Ivy please stop crying he doesn't deserve your tears " she said patting my back "I'm not crying about him I-im crying anout how pathetic I'm at how I fall inlove with him knowing he will never be mine knowing the he will never look at me I always felt if I  confessed I'll be rejected harshly but never thought this much harsh " I said as continued crying

"Please lily I need to stay alone can you leave me " I asked as she muttered an okay and left as I couldn't stop sobbing

                         Remus Pov

She ran to the girls room I couldn't talk to her I fell devastated lily run past me and entered the room without glancing at me I waited till lily came back " she is broken she needs some time alone "lily said " I'm sorry lily I-I told him to stop but he is so stubborn he didn't listen " I said
" I know but you told him that she likes him that was unacceptable even though it was because you love her " lily said

"I know that but my anger took a hold of me " I tried to justify my self
" well now we need to wait till she calm down I think it's better if you leave hopefully you'll tell him to not say anything to marlene or it'll be more than complicated " lily replied as I nodded and left back to the room

On the stairs I saw James and Peter " we heard trust me we didnt want to help him but he  kept insisting so we helped just because we didn't want to tell him that she likes him but eventually now he knows " james said as Peter agreed with him  I smiled and said " it's okay its not important now what's important is that Ivy needs to be okay "

James patted my back as we three went back to the room as we entered siruis quickly stood up " I-is s-she alright?" He stuttered " no she is not she doesn't want anybody to talk to her " I replied as I sat on my bed

" M-moony you know I-I didn't mean what I said it just came out of my mouth because I was frustrated and confused about why you are keeping your love for her to yourself but now I understood I'm sorry really sorry for what I did please forgive me " siruis said in pleading eyes

" It's okay I'm your friend since first year ik you didn't mean it and all the matchmaking you did was to make us happy but I'm not the one that should hear the apologise about what you said " I said looking at him he nodded muttering that I'm right
" Also lily told me that marlene should not know about all of this because it'll be awkward for them and that the last thing Ivy needs " I said
" Yeah of course thank you for forgivibg me "siruis said as we hugged then we heard a knock Peter opened the door it was marlene

" Hey what are you doing here ?" Siruis asked her " lily doesn't want me to enter my room she said that Ivy is sick and doesn't need anybody to annoy her so I came her to see you babe " she explained as she kissed his cheeks he smiled and they excused themselves

I laid back exhausted with what happened today wanting to sleep so I can  talk to Ivy tomorrow but as I close my eyes her broken face made my heart clench and the sleep to go away
I stayed awake trying not to think about what happened

                     Siruis Pov

Me and marlene were snogging in a room but my mind couldn't stope thinking about how my words hurted Ivy I pushed marlene a little she looked at me confused " babe I'm tired can we continue tomorrow" I asked her " Are you okay are you hurt" she asked worried "no  babe I'm just tired I need to rest " I denied kissing her last time as we went out from the room and we separated in the tower hoping tomorrow will be better