Only you

Chapter 19

I tried to get out of bed the next morning but I just couldn't gain enough strength to. Earlier today Ravi came to my room and told me that Reyna knew what was going on now, I guess that was good. But I didn't really pay attention to everything else he said.

I know it's stupid for me to be mad at Ravi since he was just doing his job but I can't help it, he could've said something. Ivy could've said something too. They just chose not to.

"Hey so uhm good news we're going to go arrest this guy so you'll get to go home soon." Ravi announced as he walked in the door.

"Mhm." I replied as I turned to face the other way on the bed.

"Look, I know your angry and you have every right to be but for what it's worth I really did want to tell you, it just wasn't my place too." Ravi explained.

"Ok." I replied blankly.

"I-I have to go, bye." He said awkwardly, I didn't bother responding.

I decided to lay in bed for longer, I still couldn't convince myself to actually get up. I fell back asleep a little while later. I felt so groggy, I had no idea what time it was and I'd spent most of my day in and out of sleep. It was dark out by time I woke up again, even though I was tired I forced myself to go eat something.

I could only stomach a bit of toast, I ended up having a shower too which felt kind of nice. I stayed in the bath for over an hour just pruning up. I tried to get myself to cry since I felt like I had too but I just couldn't cry about it, no matter how hard I tried.

After I got out of the shower Ravi was back, he seemed tired. I assumed it was because of how long the arrest took. He sat down on the couch and beckoned me over to him.

"We caught him, he'll be gone for a long time, but I feel like there's something else we should properly talk about." He explained.

"Can I go home?" I asked as I sat down on the couch.

"Yes but we-" He tried to say as I cut him off.

"But nothing, I want to go home." I demanded.

"I'll take you home after we talk." He said sternly.

"Fine, go on." I replied.

"Ivy and I both wanted to tell you, our boss told us we couldn't, but we wanted too." He said.

"I understand that but you told me you were on this case so why couldn't she tell me?" I retorted.

"I don't know, I can't speak for her but I can speak for myself when I say that I would've told you if I could and I'm sorry I didn't, but it wasn't my place to go behind my boss' and my partner's back." Ravi explained.

"I know, it's just such a frustrating situation, I'm not actually mad at you, I'm mad at Ivy." I replied.

"I honestly think you should try and talk to her, I'm not saying talk to her today or tomorrow or in the next week but eventually you have to talk to her." He said.

"I know, and I will, I just need some more time." I replied while looking down at my lap, I could feel the tears finally starting to well up in my eyes.

Before I knew it the tears started to slide down my face, I tried to stop the sniffling but I knew Ravi could see and hear me. He didn't say anything but he held me. It felt nice to have someone hold me for once. I think we sat there for a really long time while I just cried. Eventually I moved away after about an hour.

I started getting ready to go to sleep, I had decided that I'd just go home in the morning. I couldn't be bothered to brush my teeth at the moment so I just went straight to the bed instead. It didn't take very long before I fell asleep.

I had been completely knocked out for the whole night. I realized it was kind of late when I woke up so I'd just go home now. Ravi was sitting in the living room by time I was ready. We quickly got into his car and started our journey to my apartment.

It was silent for most of the ride but it was a comfortable silence, we listened to music for a little bit but nothing more then that. He didn't try to make a conversation which I was grateful for, I was too tired mentally to handle one. Part of me felt I was overreacting while another part of me said I was being completely rational in this whole situation.

It was hard to navigate my feeling through all of this. Sometimes I was mad and upset and just wanted to punch something, while other time I was so miserable that I just wanted to curl upon a ball and cry. That's how I felt now.

I held off the tears for as long as I could in the car, occasionally flicking away the stray tear rolling down my cheek. Ravi didn't seem to notice, or he didn't say anything about it, which was nice. The ride to my house had been put to a stop after 20 minutes, he parked in the garage and got up to lead me to my apartment.

"It's ok, I'll be fine in my own." I said as he moved towards the way to my apartment.

"I know but I want to be here for you." He replied.

"I know, but right now I need my best friends and a tub of ice cream, and none of those things include you." I explained with a soft smile on my face.

"Ok, fine." He sighed, to which I smiled back.

"Bye bye." I waved him off.

"Bye." He waved back and left the parking garage.

The walk up the stairs was excruciatingly slow, I didn't know why but I didn't have the energy to walk as fast as I normally do. It was probably because I felt like my life was falling apart but it's fine.

As soon as I got to my floor I rushed to my apartment. I banged on the door a little harder then necessary but I didn't care. I just want the comfort of my own home. Eventually Reyna answered but her headset on her head indicated that I had interrupted her, she looked a bit annoyed before realizing it was me.

"Oh hey Priya I'm so sorry I heard what happened." She said quickly and took off her headset completely and dropped her video game controller.

I smiled softly before the tears cascaded down my face, I collapsed in her arms as soon as I was through the door and just cried for so long as she stroked my hair in the entrance of our apartment.

Hiii! Sry I didn't update this whole week but I just got a bunny! So I was kind of busy. This chapter isn't rly anything but a filler but I still like to highlight her relationships with other ppl then Ivy. I'll try to update tmrw bc most likely I'll be updating more on weekends. Also 3-4 chapters left! Yay! Ok now bye bye!
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