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Is it wrong to have feelings towards your husband ??
Yes, it is, in Amaya's case.
Amaya, a girl whose life is controlled by her parents, she like a bird which is in a gold cage and the last thing she wants is to get married.
Aadit, a boy w...
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• A M A Y A •
Aadit, the name alone brings a smile to my face, everything about him is special, he makes me feel special, the way he stares at me, the way he treats me, the way he speaks to me everything does something inside my heart, very deep inside
It took me long enough to realise that the feeling that I feel is not just a normal feeling, it's something more, and I know what it is, I fell for him, something I shouldn't have done, something I shouldn't have feel
People say that love is beautiful but what they don't know is, love can be ugly sometimes, so ugly that you wish for that feeling to disappear but at the same time you want that feeling
Because, sometime you find pleasure in pain that love gives you, you feel happy when you are with them even when you know that they won't be with you in the end, you feel special when they do a little things for you even when you know that they are just simple things
Sometimes you wish everything is a dream, a good dream but again at the same time you wish everything should remain the same
Sometimes you think that you are not in love, you try to tell yourself that everything you feel is just a attraction, but at the end you know that you are just trying to fool yourself
. Sometimes you spend all your time hoping it'll eventually be something different. Something better. Then, before you know it, you're back to square one, and you lost your heart somewhere along the way
You will feel regret and pain when you think about your feeling but at the same time it gives an immense pleasure that nothing could give
You will feel devastating when you think that girls like you don't deserve a person like Aadit, you feel like you want to scream your lungs out, but at the same time you will feel buoyant when you think that girls like you gets a chance to be with Aadit even if it's for a short time
Because you know that girls like you should have done something great in your previous life to be with Aadit
Because you know that girls like you don't deserve someone like Aadit
It's hurt everytime when I think about leaving Aadit but I know it's for the best, the best for him because I know a girl like me who is having baggage, who can't forget about her past, who has insecurity can't give anything he wishes
But at the same time I want to be selfish, just for this time, only this time, I want him all for myself, I need him, I want to spend my life with him
Not everything goes like we wish for, my life has never been easy, from my childhood till now but I never bothered about it, I always have been positive and had a hope everytime when something bad happens, hope that everything will be alright but this time I never had that hope because I know I won't able to recover from this pain
Sometimes I think what would have happened if Aaira didn't come between Aadit and I ??
My life would have been pleasant and I would have been happier, but not everything happens like we wish
But whenever think of him and Aaira together, I feel suffocated, I feel betrayed, I feel something more, something I shouldn't feel, something that makes me feel bad
Something that reminds me that Aadit is my husband, something that tells me that I have the rights on him, something that tells he is mine, he is mine to love, mine to cherish, mine to keep for the rest of my life
At the same time this feels so wrong, the feeling I feel for him, everything is wrong
The more I stay away from him, the more he comes closer, No matter how much I try to convince my self saying this all just will fade away, the feelings I have for him but why do I feel like nothing will change expect the pain I have gets severe
And the feelings I have for him gets deeper, so deeper that I eventually got lost in him
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Hope you guys enjoyed the chapter
I tried to express Amaya's feeling but I am kinda unsatisfied with this chapter, if you don't like this chapter then feel free to comment down below, I will rewrite the chapter
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