Maybe This Time

Part 22

I woke up to loud banging on the door. I immediatley took Sandy and gave him to manang at pinalock ko ang pinto ng kwarto.

I opened the door and was shocked to  see Sandro infront of me

He looked mad. Ano nnman problema neto

"Did you go home with him?!" Is he fucking here?!"

"Tangina Elisse, you slept with me tapos lalabas ka with your boss?!" He shouted

Parang nandilim paningin ko sa mga salita niya. Who does he think he is. At ang lakas lakas ng boses nya ano iisipin ng mga katabing room

"What the hell?! Magigising ang bata!?" I shouted back pushing his chest

"So you brought a guy here with your son?! Wow Elisse! Just wow"

We were both inside my suite. Mang Ambo and Mang Richard just behind him.

" is this some ploy to get back at me?! Fuck" he continued to shout. Pacing back and forth across the room. He continued his rant hindi ko na maintindihan ang mga sinasabi niya, my heart felt like coming out of my chest, my hands shaking.

Just before I could think about it, i slapped him across the face. I saw the look of shock on his face. Bumalik lahat ng naramdaman kong lungkot at galit.

" how dare you! Ganun ba kababa ang tingin mo sakin?! Ive never dated anyone, Ive devoted my life to my son.. tangina Sandro!! Its all about you isnt it?! Its all about you!!!
Hindi ako nagalit sayo nung pinalayas mo ako sa bahay over text, hindi kita sinisi nung naaksidente ako.. never. Ganun kita ka-mahal. I never dated. I was never touched by any other man after you, ikaw lang.. and you have the audacity to accuse me?!" My voice was cracking, i was sobbing, but I couldnt stop talking

"Lahat lahat lahat ng ako, binigay ko sayo, stay in Ilocos, yes... lets build a life together.. yes... kahit ang bilis bilis ng pangyayare, all I said was yes. Even when you left, all I said was yes, kasi i trusted you, you were life itself"

i wiped my tears with the back of my hand. I didnt care how I mustve looked. He was just staring at me, studying me.

"I lost myself when I was with you, i lose Elisse Martinez. Sandy rescued me. I want to find the part of me that I lost."

"Im sorry Eli" he said and he took a step forward and was trying to reach for me.

I stepped back

"I never stopped loving you, but natatakot ako, na if I give in to this na hindi ako ready, hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupulutin pag iniwan mo ako uli, lalo na with Sandy. I cant... i cant" i was holding my hands up gesturing for him to stay away

"Its not going to be like that love, i knew what I did was stupid, i.." i had to cut him offf

"I dont want to wait for you, i dont want my life centered around you anymore" we stared at each other trying to gauge each others reaction.

Rocket and Gly entered the room probably hearing the noise. And was looking at Sandro and I trying to comprehend what had happened

"Mang Ambo, please take Sandro home" mang ambo nodded and was tugging on Sandro

Gly went to my side.

"Sands I think you should go, dont worry we'll take care of them. Palamig muna for now" Rocket  Said to Sandro

Both of us just stared at each other both not moving.

"Please" i said to him almost breathless

I broke his trance and he left with Mang Ambo and Mang Richard

"What was that about?" Gly asked while trying to calm me down.

I looked at her still shaking, kahit ako hindi ko alam ano yun.

"I just want to go home"...

Rocket talked to Dwight and explained everything he left out Sandro and I's yelling session.

Hinatid pa rin kami ng driver with Mang Richard. I did not argue anymore with Mang Richard there, quite frankly Im just too drained.

Looking at Sandy asleep in my arms. How happy he is with his dad, I know I couldnt take that away from him anymore. Hinahanap na niya masyado ang daddy niya.

I slept through the whole trip from La Union to Manila.

Why did a few minutes arguing with Sandro felt like a 48 hour duty in the hospital.

We arrived home. Sandy was asking for his dad.
I couldnt face him even if its for Sandy.

I asked manang if they could video call on my phone and She could just give it back to me afterwards.

I got ready for bed, skipped the skin care, didnt even bother to pack my things. I just wanted to lie down and sleep again, pero ayaw ako patulugin.

I kept replaying what happened this morning. I cant believe he thought I slept with Dwight after I slept with him.

"Sana nga lumandi na lang ako, nang makalimutan ko sya" i thought to myself and sighed. As much as I pull away from him, si Sandro lang ang gusto ko. I covered my face with a pillow at gusto ko isigaw na lang ang frustration ko doon.

Nakatulala lang ako at nakatingin sa kisame nung pumasok si Manang at inabot sa akin ang telepono

"Si Sir Vincent tumatawag" ayaw ko sana sagutan pero its Vince how can I not

"So kuya fucked up again?" I can tell he was stiffling his laugh

"How did you know? For sure hindi ngkwento kuya mo. Vince how do I deal with him! I dont want to talk about it" I complained

"Mang Ambo vaguely told mom so I was hoping you will tell me what happen, kuya has a weird way of showing it but he loves you and Sandy. He's just used to getting what he wants.. so tell me na what happened?" Ang kulit talaga netong taong toh

Since vincent was so persistent and wont shut up, i told him everything. Lalabas na ata siya sa phone ko sa lakas ng tawa niya. Kung hindi lang talaga kapatid turing ko saknya binagsakan ko na sya ng telepono

"Do whats right for you, I guess I can talk to kuya, talk some sense into him" he said after he stopped laughinh

"No, i think we have to fix things ourselves. I just want him to respect what I want and my space"

I turned off my phone and put in 2 tablets of melatonin and let sleep take me