so be it
why must i love you?
i did not plan to.
perhaps the twinkling stars
gazed below and agreed on us.
and this is because of
the crossing of paths
based on pure chance.
but i do not believe in chance.
or coincidence.
we are in love for a reason.
although,
i cannot tell you
what that reason is.
perhaps i believe
it was in me to love you
from the very moment
i laid my eyes on you.
from across the somewhat crowded room.
and it is in me
to love you
every day after that.
i ask God,
am i meant to love him?
forevermore, or
forever and a day more?
if we found ourselves on God,
our love could be His,
that which is eternal and perfect.
as love ought to be amongst us--
those young and quite naive.
as man, our love is flawed.
but i haven't a care.
we could love perfectly,
if we really tried.
but loving you is effortless.
you make falling desirable.
so desirable...
i begged and prayed not to.
i prayed i wouldn't.
i could not fall and love
the answer to my precious prayers.
is that not wrong?
God thought so.
perhaps, He let me plummet.
i fell.
and to this day,
i fall for a reason i cannot tell.
people ask:
why him?
a part of me
would kill to list all
the reasons why.
but i know they won't understand.
how can explain?
i was meant to love you
from before i even knew!
how are they to believe in
what was allowed to be?
so i save my breath,
keeping certain beautiful things
between God, you, and me.
is that selfish to do?
well,
if i am wrong,
i am wrong.
either way,
i am meant to love you
with God's love and my own.
for Him, you, and i.
no one else.
so be it.
