how much longer?
i am sorry this life
is so hard.
i am sorry
we don't have a connection
to unexplainable wealth.
i am sorry we have to work
twice as hard just to have
a piece of peace on this earth.
i am sorry i live too far.
i am sorry i can't be there
to nurse you back to health.
i am sorry i can't
do more for you.
i am sorry i am a burden at times.
i am sorry i hold you back.
as much as i want to be
your only priority,
i know better.
we have needs.
you have yours,
and i have mine.
someday soon,
perhaps, all will be one.
it's just,
i wish i was there.
i truly believe
the issues we have today
won't be the same as tomorrow's.
our day to day complications
would be unfamiliar.
and that will be the thrill.
i would cry
because you threw a sock
beside the bin.
not because
you are two hours ahead
and our schedules aren't
gracious to us;
being that you are across
state lines and i am just here.
oh, what i would give
to be an hour away.
i have convinced myself
this is how it's supposed to be!
you and i are to
struggle and suffer.
because how much more rewarding
would all that we want be?
if we know...
the amount of sweat, blood, and tears
we both sacrificed to obtain
a dream.
don't you think
the satisfaction alone
would make it all worth it?
i can only hope.
i have waited.
and i will wait.
for us.
for you and me.
but until then,
i am sorry.
i am sorry
i cry every time you
tell me you miss me.
i am sorry
i beg you for five more minutes
while you fight to stay awake.
i am sorry
i plan every minute of an arrival
that isn't even promised.
i am sorry
i am not so simple.
my whole word revolves around you.
my life is set on a path
to becoming yours,
until death do us part.
so when i am failing
to do what i am meant to do,
i feel so incredibly downhearted.
i hope you know,
i am going to love you
beyond your imagination.
because,
i have to make up
for lost time.
