PART 2 to TUBE
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It had been two months since Mouse had his feeding tube fitted, and the once confident young IT Tech was now emotional and a shadow of what he was.
At the current moment, the smaller man was laying in the bed cuddled up to Jay as his night feed was rubbing through the tube. The older lover was gently rubbing his back, leaving soft kisses on his head every so often.
"Are you ok babe?" Jay asked softly, feeling his husband shift
"I feel sick Jay, I don't like it" Mouse whimpered, trying to get closer to his lover
"I know baby, you're nearly finished, then we can sleep" Jay promised, shifting his body so Mouse was now laying on top of him
"Please Jay, I don't want it anymore" Mouse whimpered, eyes filling with tears
"Mouse, you need it baby, you weighed 9stone when I left for Bolivia, and weighed in at just under 6 when Connor weighed you the othet week, it isn't healthy baby" Jay soothed, sitting himself up and allowing his smaller husband to settle on his lap
"But I'm getting better, please Jay, I want it out" Mouse cried, hands reaching for the tube but Jay was quick to stop him pulling it out, and hugging him close
"Mouse, you're getting there baby, a couple more weeks, and then we will see what Connor thinks ok" Jay sighed, hugging Mouse close
A small beep broke the silence, alerting the couple that the feed had been completed, Jay leaned over and detached the tube so that Mouse was free from the machine. Looking down he saw that his husband had cried himself to sleep.
He sighed, the last two months had been the hardest on his husband, the tube was making him such a anxious person, and he refused to go out unless Jay was with him.
Grabbing his phone, while keeping Mouse on his lap, he texted his brother-in-law Connor asking him hiw much longer he would need the tube in, explaining how much it was affecting the younger man.
He was surprised how quickly Connor replied, asking Jay to bring Mouse in tomorrow and they could discuss it together. The man to be fair to him had put on some weight and was able to wat two proper meals a day.
"I love you so much baby, never forget that" Jay whispered, running his hands through Mouses hair as he slept
The next morning, Jay woke Mouse by gently pressing kisses all over his face, ending on his lips as the man woke up properly. The smaller man smiled shyly, cuddling into Jays warm body, hiding his face in the older mans neck.
"We are going to see Connor today, can you get dressed for me please" Jay asked gently
"Is he taking it out?" Mouse asked, eyes wide in hope
"I don't know beautiful, let's see what he says ok?" Jay whispered, bringing Mouse in for a hug
"I didn't mean to let you down" Mouse whispered
"You didn't let me down Mouse, we knew there would be moments that you'd slip back, but we will get you there" Jay said, looking into Mouses eyes
"You promise?" the younger man whispered
"Always" was all Jay replied, walking away to get changed himself
Once both men were changed, they started the drive to Chiagco Med. The anxiety started to fill Mouses body, and he found himself trying not to burst into tears, however a small sob did manage to leave his lips as the truck pulled into the carpark.
"Hey, hey, you're ok, please don't cry babe" Jay soothed
"I'm scared, what if he says I need to keep it in for longer, I hate it Jay, please make him take it out" was all Mouse cried, hands shaking as he tried to reach for his husband
"Wait there baby, let me come round to you" Jay rushed out, putting his truck in park and running to the passenger side
"I want to go home, don't want to be here" Mouse cried, reaching for Jay as he opened the car door
"I know baby, I know, but we will see Connor quickly and then we can go home and cuddle, watch some disney movies" Jay soothed, picking Mouses smaller body up and holding him tightly
The younger man didn't reply, he just nodded and rested his head in Jays neck, the tube dangling down the side of his face as the tears had loosened the tape slightly. Noticing this Jay got some tape from the car and quickly redid it so it wouldn't bother the younger man.
Walking into the hospital, Jay didn't let go of Mouse, waving at Connor who allowed the two men to come through straight away to a treatment room. Following Connor into the bay, Jay placed Mouse on the bed, grabbing his hand when he whimpered.
"Mouse, can we weigh you quickly, then we can make a decision" Connor said softly
"Yea" was all he got in reply as the smaller man slid off the bed and shuffled to the scales
"Ok, so when we weighed you two months ago you were 6stone, and you're now 7stone" Connor sighed, he had hopef the small man would have been able to get up to at least 8stone
"Can we take it out, please, I'll eat better, just please let me take it out" Mouse cried out, stepping off the scales
"What do you think Jay, how's he doing with eating and drinking?" Connor asked, his heart clenching at the vulnerable IT tech infront of him
"I think mentally he needs it out, he manages a bowl of porridge every morning, and has been eating a proper meal every night" Jay admitted, helping Mouse back on the bed, grabbing his hand to support him
"Ok, I'll take it out, with the promise that you will eat and drink whenever Jay says you need to" Connor said sternly, watching as Mouse smiled through his tears
"I will, I promise" Mouse cried, reaching to pull the tube himself, but Connor stopped him
"I need to do it bud, hold on Jays hands as it'll be wuite uncomfortable" Connor warned, untaping the tube before he started gently pulling it out the smaller man
Mouse squirmed at the uncomfortable feeling, gagging as he left his throat and made its way out of his nose. It took seconds, and the smaller man let out a whimper as he finally realised it was out for good. Jay smiled at his smaller lover, bringing him in for a toght hug as the man cried in relief of it being gone.
