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'Here i am , again , after so many months... I missed you dear note book How many years have it been since i have you...i'm so sorry that i don't remember , but i'm sure we both know my inspiration was metanoia , my miracle... How are we? Well...not so good yet not so bad... We are still homeless , our roof is the sky and walls are trees , we are room mate with bugs and insects , unfortunatly can't get along , my metanoia's knees is biten with one of them...i'm regreting... Metanoia?she alright , still shines like diamond she is , roam around here to there and color my world with her love paint...nowadays i think i'm the butterfly here , and she is the candle , i want to just get close to her , circle around her again and again till i die in her arms , just like how butterfly dies by getting near to candle....but anyway it's about her not me...well hana is making her work 24/7 and these days i'm seeing her for 0 second ...hmmm i'm regreting
Jimin? He is alright too...he is learning how to play guitar....no we didn't leave our dark world , we still go to dark alleys and gamble our everything , fly so high to the moon and sometimes get hit to the ground so badly but no , we still continue...but just like my metanoia wanted , we tried to do something else...oh god...she and her soft soul , she doesn't know we are rough , she doesn't know we are eager for danger.anyway jimin was found singing while washing the dishes in resturant and it intrested his boss , so now he is forced to do a live performance for this week sunday....poor him , or maybe lucky him....but yet i'm regreting
Me?we reached to me?wow look at here , my tears made you wet , such a freak i am...it's like i am conected to tears and sorrow right now...i'm doing good too , just start working in a carpentry...it feels so unreal to see my boss is not rude , well in this town everyone have bithchy behaviour and i'm usaully so unluck in meeting a good person....but yet i can't bare the heavy regret in my heart.... I can't bare seeing how my y/n is working all day to help us , it's so sweet of her and i love to feel her love but i don't wanna see her being tired in bad way , her full of cuts hands for flowers thorn , her paining throught cause we had no roof when it was raining , hell i hate how she has to sleep on the cold ground for my stupid decision....or our jimini pabo , i don't remeber the last time he slept , his bruised up body just reminds me about how i failed. I failed in protecting them , i failed in taking steps to future , from the very first day , back to our orphange time i made the to not see couples cause i promised when we grow up , i will make them the life they want , a house where we will party all days , tasty food , full stomach and cursing teachers of university....it was what i wanted to make for us , not this....it's their right to hate me...i wanted to die when i saw y/n's knee , i wanted to die when jimin had a nosebleed out of working too much...i know if i say this to them they will beat me to death for blaming my self , but i can't help than hating myself.... But anyways , just like i read in the god knows which book some days we laughed until we cried, Other days We cried until we laughed, Either way Every day was perfect'
