TOBI
My eyes felt glued shut but I managed to pull them open and tug all the sleep out of my inner corners. I took a minute to wake up and then checked the time to see it was 2pm! God that's late for me. I wonder why I slept in so long until I thought back to last night, my breakdown in the bathroom with- oh my god with Harry. Shit Harry seen me cry and breakdown and fall apart. And he knows about me throwing up, I told him I was ill, he'd believe me, right? He won't suspect anything. Why am I overthinking no one gives a shit about me, no one cares about me. Who would care about me? I'm just a shitty skinny boy who is smily and friendly from the outside but inside im a depressed sad little fuck who cuts myself because I feels so much pain and cry's over stupid things everyday. No one knows that but no one ever cares to ask. I should talk to someone about it before I take it too far. But again it doesn't matter, they don't care.
Someone lightly knocked on my door ,"Tobi you up?" I knew it was hazza, weirdly the only person who makes me feel comfortable but also the only person I really didn't want to face right now. Especially after last night. I lifted my head "Come in." I shouted back, okay I didn't shout I simply whispered but he still heard. Harry swung open my door with a big grin on his face. Why? I don't know but it was kinda funny so I laughed weakly. "What's with the grin Harry?" I asked him and he simply shrugged. "I don't know just woke up in a good mood." I nodded back at him and then swung my head down again, fidgeting with my fingers. He's going to ask about last night. I don't want to talk about it.
HARRY
I could tell he didn't want to talk about, so I wouldn't bring it up. "Wanna come watch a movie downstairs with the boys?" I asked. He didn't respond to me so I tried making it sound better and funner than just a boring movie, "si is out with talia and half the boys are asleep, late night last night for them." I chuckled to myself then continued "it's just vik and josh that are awake tobs and we're just chilling anyway." I finished. He looked up at me. "Am I allowed to fall asleep?" I nodded, I just want him to enjoy himself even if it's just watching a film , but if he wants to chill for a bit, especially after last night I'll let him off this one time. Tobi got up , wrapped a big fluffy blanket round him and we headed down stair.
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ESTÁS LEYENDO
𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐮𝐬 (𝐭𝐛𝐣𝐳𝐥)
Fanfictobi(tbjzl) mental health is at a big low and the boys ( the sidemen ) are starting to catch on. Tobi wants to tell the boys everything and open up but is scared of what they'll think. tw: sh , anxiety, panic attacks , depression, suicidal thoughts.
