Processing

teeter totter

Running back and forth across my mind
Compassion tells me to sprint to her side
And anger demands me at his.

Memories flash like Edison bulbs,
Remorse at the past transgressions
But resentful of the buildup within.

Balance was never a strong suit.
Encouragement at the compromises made
While snickering at just another let down.

Two sides, two angles, two levels
My heart wants to forgive you and shame me
My mind reminds me why I'm stronger without you.