Amaya POV
It was torture to say the least, watching them play the sport that I love so much and not being able to play. Up until a year ago I was on this field able to run around and play. But now I am found on the side just watching them. I would do anything to get into one of the drills, sure I didn't love all of them, but I would still kill to be apart of it now.
I've gotten hurt so many times but this time it's different. Even after tearing my acl and needing surgery I was never like this. Yeah I couldn't wait to be back but it wasn't killing me. I'm not too sure what changed in the last 3 years for this drastic change to occur. Something had to happen, maybe it's because I don't have the escape anymore. I can't come to the field and clear my head, I am just left to watch from the side.
Amaya you're fine I remind myself like the many times before. I stand up and I walk over to where my coach was standing and I stand next to him. He was watch what everyone was doing, making sure that they were doing the drill correctly.
"So Amaya when are you able to come back" my coach asked me as he turned to look at me
"Well I am being sent to PT to make sure that I don't have any problems with anything" I say pausing while I turn away from watching the drill to look at my coach "my physical therapist will let me know when I'm able to go back, or something like that" I say smiling rubbing the back of my head
Amaya keep your memory problem to yourself.
"That's good" my coach said nodding his head
I look back at the drill that they are doing it's a passing drill to goal. There was only one person that I didn't know when I came here today. That was the goalie. From what I could see she wasn't bad but she wasn't great either, she saved some shots but most went in.
You got replaced.
"Amaya" my coach said pulling my attention again
"Yeah" I say looking at my coach
"How would you feel about playing on the field when you come back" my coach asked me which caught me off guard you're not good enough.
"Why" I asked my coach not really sure what he ment by that
"Amaya, you're great in net but you're also great on the field" my coach said pausing "I don't want you to get hurt again while in net" my coach said again while looking at me
Lier, you're a liability is what he's saying
"Okay" I nod my head smiling "I'll try it out" I say to my coach you're fine Amaya I remind myself again
I watch as coach blows his whistle signaling the end of practice, everyone started migrating into there groups. The two people I am closest to added another to our group, but I wasn't apart of their group. I was standing on the side line waiting for them, but they never came. They didn't even notice that I was missing, they didn't think twice about it.
See your replaceable
"I have to get going now coach" I say to him smiling hiding what ever I might be feeling
"alright see you later than amaya" My coach says to me and smiles
after he said that I started walking out of the boxed I field, I look over to my side to see the team getting out of their cleats and laughing like they always did. Seeing how they are acting makes me really realize how much they dont need me anymore.
they no longer need you. You've been replaced how does that feel
Thats not true they still need me.
I walk out of the field and down the hallway it's different leaving preactice without being sweaty and carrying a bag. It's not something I am used to or I ever want to be used to. Its also so weird not walking out with my favorite people, I left all by myself. I never really thought about how quiet these halls could be when walking alone.
"Amaya wait up" I hear someone yell behind me accompanied by alot of talking and laughing. I turn around to see my team walking so I stop moving and I do as I was told.
"Amaya how could you just leave like that without saying anything to us" kumi said to me
"Sorry, Sorry" I say putting my hands up
"Just dont do it next time okay" Kumi says as she places her arm around my shoulder
"Okay I won't" I say laughing "EW you're all sweaty get off of me" I say to her
"your better than her" Kumi whispers in my ear "Fine Fine what ever the princess wants" Kumi follows up with as she takes her arm off of my shoulder.
I push open the door and I am greeted by the cool wind that just so happened to blow by as I opened the door. I walk out to the side walk and I see my aunt parked right infront of me
"how was the practice amaya" my aunt asked me as I got into the car
"It was Pretty good, I just watched them practice the whole time which was pretty boring"
"Im sorry to hear that" my aunt said to me
"Yeah, but its better than not being there" I say pausing "This is the cosest l have been to playing in along time" I say turning to look out the window as we start driving back home
"Amaya you needing soccer so much isn't heathy" my aunt says to me
"Its one of the healthiest options that I could have done" l say to her "I could have continued to isolat myself, I could have started Selfharming, but me needing soccer Is unhealthy" I say looking at her again
"Amaya you know what l meant" my aunt said to me
"you're telling me needing the only thing that has ever been there for me is unhealthy, of course I don't know what you mean" I say looking back out the window
"Amaya you have so many people around you that want to help but you never give them the chance" my aunt says to me
"yeah sure everyone was there at first but after awhile it just gets old, no one cares that you got hurt no one cares about the pain, no one checks on you. At a point the person you want check on you just doesn't care, and at some point you realize that they never have and they never will" I say to my aunt as I lookout the window
"Amaya are you talking about your mom"
"of course, I am everything I have ever done was for her the only reason I still want to play soccer is because It the only thing that has always been in my life the only thing I knew can always be there. now I don't know if I want to even play anymore." I say as I rest my head against the window
"Amaya that's not true" my aunt says and I can only imagine the look on her face
"You're telling me my feelings now" I say as I close my eyes trying to fight off the headache that is starting to form
"That's not what I meant" my aunt says quietly
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