Chapter 3
"Ito 'yung coverage ng long quiz mamaya, Calysta."
"Okay. Thanks, Magnus."
Kahit magkatabi kami ng upuan, sadyang nagkaroon na'ng pagitan iyon na dati ay halos hindi madaanan ng hangin. Nagtalikuran din kami at nagkanya-kanya ng review.
I pouted as I wanted so bad to talk a lot of things with him, but his lip kiss last week made us awkward now.
Tumakbo at nagmamadali akong umuwi pagkatapos akong halikan ni Magnus nang biglaan. Napatahan nga ako sa pag-iyak pero... I was... confused?
Yeah, everything was mixed up and messed up inside my head and chest.
I still ache at the thought that I was wrong for assuming Florian Conrado liked me back. I ache that he doesn't like me. Florian's in love with someone else. Worst was to hear him confessing and making love to the girl he's crazy for!
I also wonder why Magnus... kissed me.
To comfort me? Pero bakit naman kailangan ay halik? That was my first kiss if I'll count it. His soft lips lingered a little against mine since I was taken by surprise. Maybe it took seconds before I pulled away and ran.
But am I angry at him?
Pa-simple akong lumingon at nakita ang likod niya. He's quietly reading a textbook.
Binalik ko ang tingin ko sa notebook na pinahiram niya sa 'kin.
No. I can't feel any anger towards Magnus for kissing me. I can't get mad at him. I don't want to. Never akong nagalit kay Magnus. Nagtataka lang ako kung bakit halik ang naisip niyang pang-comfort!
Tingin niya ba mapa-pacify niya ang pagka-brokenhearted ko sa Kuya niya, kaya't binigyan niya 'ko ng halik?
Silang magkapatid na tuloy ang iniisip at pinoproblema ko ngayon!
Gustong-gusto ko nang kuwentuhan si Harana o si Marvee! Pero ayokong malaman nila na narinig kong may katalik si Florian at hinalikan ako ni Magnus!
Hanggang kailan ko kaya 'to makikipkip?
"Caly."
Gulat akong napapitlag at saka lumingon kay Magnus. "Y-Yes?"
He sighed and turned his whole body towards me. His eyes looked at me—sorry and pleading. Ako ang hindi makatingin nang diretso sa kanya. Nagtataka nga ako. I started to feel something inside my stomach... It's not that I'm having an indigestion or what. Hindi ko talaga maintindihan.
I heard him sighed, again. "Pinapasabi ni Kuya Florian na bago mag-Christmas break, may last holiday game sila. As their team's muse, they wanted you to attend it, again. Kakausapin ka raw niya mamaya kung available ka ng lunch break."
Napalunok ako. Napapikit. I still have a responsibility with Florian's basketball team. I cannot just drop being the team's muse. Pero paano na 'ko makakakilos sa harap ni Florian? Paano ako magpapapanggap na okay lang ako, knowing that he's dating someone else?
Can I just quit it? Pero baka ma-disappoint si Florian sa 'kin...
But then, again, so what? As if kailangan ko pang magpa-impress at magpa-cute sa harap ng gusto kong lalaki na iba naman ang gusto!
"Calysta?"
I blinked and pouted. Tumingin na 'ko kay Magnus. "O-Okay. I'll talk to him over lunch break. Ahm, s-samahan mo 'ko?"
Tumango siya. "Sure..."
Ayoko namang kami lang ni Florian. At si Magnus lang ang puwedeng samahan ako. Kahit awkward kami ngayon, siya pa rin ang kaibigan kong... isasalba ako kung sakaling magmukha akong tanga o ano sa harap ni Florian mamaya.
