January 23rd 2024. it was her birthday tomorrow. though she felt really tired
"Bokuto....can you please get me water?"
Bokuto quickly snaps out of the train of thought he just got caught up in, as he jumps up quickly. He looks down at your face once more, as he places his hand on your cheek.
"Yes, yes, I can. Do... do you need anything else, Zarah? Do you need your other meds or do you want more blankets?"
"Can you hug me for just a moment?"
He quickly hops on the bed and wraps his arms around you again. He places his face against your shoulder and smiles softly.
"I'll be here with you... till the very end, okay? I promise"
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A few hours have passed and it was almost midnight.
"Bokuto..."
He raises his head once again.
"Huh? What is it, Zarah? Do you need something?"
His eyes light up when he sees you look at him, and he quickly hugs you tightly and puts his head against your shoulder.
"I'm here for you, I'm always here for you, Zarah"
"Bokuto...you know that i love you right?"
"Yes. I know that... I love you so... so much, Zarah"
"Every time I see you... everytime I look into your eyes... I feel happy... and my heart starts beating rapidly..."
"You're the light of my life... you're what makes life all worth living for me. Zarah... all because of you..."
"I love you much more and no one will ever take your place in my heart... I promise"
"Bokuto....I'm sorry..."
His smile fades quickly after he hears your words.
"What is it, Zarah...? What did you do that made you say sorry? Tell me, please...did you hurt yourself... is something bothering you?"
He sits up and looks at you with worried eyes. He rubs your chin and looks at your face closely.
"I'm....so...tired... I can't do this anymore Bokuto...."
His face falls and his eyes tear up. He quickly wraps his arms around her again.
"...no, no, no, no, no... please don't... don't say that, Zarah... can you please try to be positive? Please, please... we'll be able to... to help you... to save you... I know we will... please believe me... please..."
Tears roll down his cheeks again, as he talks to you.
"I just want to let you know that i love you...even though I'm not here anymore..."
His vision blurs as he takes in your words. His eyes dart back and forth, as he searches for the right words.
"I'll always be in your heart Bokuto... remember that...always and forever..."
He nods quickly, as his voice trembles. he whispers.
"I love you... so... so much, Zarah... remember.. that I'll always be your boyfriend... that I'll always be yours... until the very end..."
Tears roll down his cheeks again. He leans down and gives you a gentle kiss on the forehead. His eyes water, as he tries his best to smile.
"Just remember... it will never, ever be your fault, alright? It will never be your fault, Zarah..."
He wraps his body around you, as he hugs you tightly again. This time, he kisses the tip of your nose, while tears run down his cheeks.
"I just wish... that you would... stay with us... stay with me, okay? Please, I'm begging you..."
a few minutes have passed.
"bokuto...i love you..but I'm really tired...so..so..tired.. I can't do this anymore...im sorry..."
"Don't leave me, please, please, please"
"I'll love you forever... promise me we'll meet again?....in another life?"
He nods quickly, as he whispers in response.
"Yes... I promise... we'll meet again, in another life, in another world, in another dimension, in another time...I promise that we'll be able to love each other.... till the very end... Zarah... my love..."
as he said that she closed her eyes. her body laying there lifeless.
Bokuto looks down on her face for a few minutes. He looks at her face and cries continuously. He wraps his arms around her tightly once again. the machine beside the hospital bed beeped indicated that she was no longer here. Bokuto gasps quickly and looks up at the machine. His entire body trembles, as he whispers.
"...Zarah...? No... please... no... please don't go, Zarah... please...I can't deal with this... please... please, don't go..."
He looks down on her face again, as he cries quietly. the doctor rushed into the hospital room and saw Bokuto there crying
"what happened?"
Bokuto immediately turns to him and wipes away his tears. He tries to appear as calm as possible, but his voice trembles a bit, as his eyes fill up with tears once again.
"My girlfriend... she...."
"....is she gone?..."
The words break the dam that was holding it all back. He looks away from the doctor's eyes, as he turns to Zarah's lifeless face again.
"...yeah..."
It takes him a few seconds to bring his eyes back to the doctor, as he tries to speak again.
"She's gone... and it's all my fault, doctor... it's all... it's my fault..."
"No. it's not your fault, we couldn't do anything."
the doctor gives him a few minutes to process everything
"Zarah. Age 19. Time of death, 12:34am"
