It was unrequited love, I was there, it was hell:
Burning heart, melting mind, breaking soul, bearing the London bridge at your back.
I was there, it was hell, crying at night making my jaw shake, it's not cold but I'm trembling.
It was hell, I was afraid, I was sad, I was overthinking, I became paranoiac.
It was one sided, never reciprocated, I was a fool:
I confessed, he became silent, but I know it was rejection.
Never reciprocated, I was a fool, I let myself down for him, I let my heart overrule.
I was a fool, as I fell, but he never fell—never had an affection.
It was my defeat, I fell, but he didn't catch me:
I am trying to reconnect, but even a simple glare to his eyes makes me weak.
I fell, but he didn't catch me, I was insecure to my own self, so I isolated myself to flee.
But he didn't catch me, I let him go, it was a mistake for not trying to chase, as I'm afraid of the critiques.
It was embarrassing, I confessed face to face, I went away without a farewell:
I knew he was trying to reconnect, but I pushed him away.
I confessed face to face, I went away without a farewell, as I was insecure to myself, and afraid not to sustain his status—a noble.
I went away without a farewell, it is my greatest regret, but I suffer a lot, I think that's enough way.
It was done, I need to move forward, I need to let go:
It's all my fault, the blame should be on me, I can't fix the past.
I need to move forward, I need to let go, I can't forget him, so I just need to distract myself to at least slip his name to my mind, that will be the flow.
I need to let go, I need to focus on myself and use the pain to build my own glory even if I'm still aghast.
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Lesson: When you are not sure about some things, do not take a risk to make a sudden decision as it will just hurt you in the end. I don't want to hear you saying that "I think, I shouldn't do that" in the end, like what I said when I had done it. IT WAS a big risk I'd take, and IT WAS the most painful thing I went through.
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THE ANXIETIES THAT TAUGHT ME (A SELF HELP BOOK)
PoetryThe collection of original poems of mine, lessons I've learned through my own poems, and challenges I'd went through just to defeat my problems and anxieties. I wrote these pieces whenever the monster named anxiety tried to break my core again. Take...
