Eve

chapter four

She was in my mind me the whole time. I wanted to talk to her  again. I haven't been around much for a long time. Just simple things like Hello and goodbye at work or at the market. Talking to people like Sana is much more interesting than other people. Others are just looking for other people's useless actions or simple words.
The next morning I woke up feeling a lot of cold.
I went to the window and pulled the curtain. It was snowing.
It was still late autumn, but it was snowing. I went to the coffee maker and made an instant coffee.
I love looking at the snowflakes that come down when I'm hopping my bitter, hot coffee.
It was bitter. Very bitter. Just like love. It's bitter, but you're going to it. It's bitter, but you love it. It's sad, but everyone's looking for it.
It's bitter, but you think it's sweet.
People who haven't experienced love live their lives in the air. Anyone who doesn't taste this bitter pain has lived in vain. I mean love..Not liking. Not that you like someone and rejuvenate them. Not the one who comes after you on a white horse. Not the one in the palace waiting for you to get it. I mean love. Something that can't be described. Something so deep that you can't speak it. The solution you solved. Pain that is more painful to treat.
More poor than those who haven't tasted love coffee, there are those who have lost love.
I don't know. God was upset that Eve's love was more inside my heart than he took it from me. Or not, he just wanted to take my pain to the end.
I remember that every time it snows. The first time I saw him, it was snowing. He was stuck in the driveway, and his car's tire was punctured. When he came into my house, it smelled like heaven. It was gold.
The more he said, the more I was thirsty to hear.
His gaze was sacred.
But God took it from me.I talked too much or myself. My brain is ringing. It's so heavy that I want to take it out and eat it.
I was walking through these thoughts when my phone rang.
It was my colleague, and he was informing me of the closure of the office. Because of the snow, all roads within the city were closed.
I thanked him and put the phone away. I got dressed and walked to the sidewalk yesterday.
Sana was sitting on the same bench again. I went to her and said hello.
She smiled at me. She wore a thin dress. I said, " aren't you cold?"
Sana:" No. I never get cold."
I nodded in approval.

We both looked at people passing by. Some walked fast as if the snow had delayed them. Some took a slow walk, as if they had come to the painting gallery and analyzed the works. Sana's nose was fried from the cold, so I gave her my coat to warm it up.
She said, " What About You?"
I said, "I'm fine, I'm fine. I don't need it yet."
I knew from his face that he still wanted to talk, but he didn't talk. In the packed boxes, my brain was looking for a discussion to put in front of him to talk about.
I started with the most basic question: " well..What's up?"
She said, " what?
I don't know..Whatever..From, Dewes, did I see you happen?"
She looked at me: "no."
I nodded.
I lit my cigarette and looked at the front.
She said to me, " you know, these people are so naive."
Me:" you're one of them, aren't you?"
She said, "of course not"..I'm not naive. I don't mind the vain things. I don't waste time on useless things and I don't think about useless things."
I said, "Yeah, so you're a lot ahead of the rest".."
Confirmed.
Sana continued: "These people's lives are very sad. Born in a place and before those who don't choose, they grow up in a way that they don't have a hand in choosing, they build their future with their basic information and eventually die in a very ordinary way."
I said, " What About You?"
Sana: "i will never die. I myself chose where to be and even determined my own lifestyle."

I threw a cigarette:"good luck."
Sana: "i know. What bout you?
I'm almost like a dead..Of course, I promise not to spend my time on useless things. But these people call it depression. They don't know they're wrong, not me. They think that in the years they've been running, they're looking for money and life and love and work, and then you're not depressed."
Sana:" yeah, that's right. They're wasting their lives to end their ruin. They actually lived with their work and they called it the loss they had."
I looked at her:" You know if we tell them that, they think we're  crazy? Or a psychotherapy hospital?"
Sana: where's there?"
Me: "it's where people who aren't like themselves are put in there. Or people who live their own way. I really don't understand why robots of their own shape should be natural! Of course, some people are in a lot of trouble there. Devils. But the world is not known without the devil, his angels. Of course, some are very dangerous..But some are quite normal. But because they're not like them, they give them medicine or even shock."
She said nothing and just looked at the snowflakes.
I was bored. I said, "let's go for a walk"
She accepted. He gave me my coat back and said it wasn't cold.
On the way I asked her:"what are you doing here?"
Sana: "i'm here to talk to you."
Me:" why okay? Where do you live."
Sana:"all the land is my home."
Me:" so you don't have a home for yourself?"
Sana: "No. But.."
I jumped in. so come to my house. I live alone and my blood fits two people."
She stared at her face:" but you don't know me perfectly. How do you trust me?"
Me: "I don't have a lot of worthwhile things to fear losing so come on. Come on, at least you won't get cold there."
She accepted.
I stood in the middle of the way and made a snowball and threw it at her. It hit the silk hair exactly. She started, and after thirty minutes of my life, I was happy.
We were both shaking with the cold. I grabbed her hand and said, "let's go home". It's very cold. We freeze.."
She followed me.
Thank God the house wasn't far away.