Who are you ?
Nia POV
3 months later
" how did that make you feel Nia ?"
" it made me feel weak , like dirt , like I meant nothing " I cleared my throat to prevent my voice from croaking .I looked to my left to see Aleksandr holding my hand . He looked up at me and smiled raising my hand and brought it to his lips to kiss it gently . I draw in a breath and continue speaking of the hardest moment of my life .
It's been three months since I've been staying with Aleksandr. I've started talking to my psychiatrist. I thought if Aleksandr thought me to be as brave as he thought maybe i would be just for this
For me
To heal
I needed to be braveHe's been there every step of the way . My elbow has even healed as well as my tongue , concussion, and one of my knees . My other knee had to by operated on again due to the bone not healing properly so I was on crutches at the moment . The scar on my stomach was a faint white .
Although my body was going back to normal . I couldn't stand to look at myself . Everywhere I looked I felt like he had branded me scarred me . I couldn't look at my scars and think that I was a survivor of something dire . I felt kinda useless . Ugly . No woman's body looked like mine . No woman's body looked disgusting like mine .
So I covered up . Every article of clothing Aleksandr has ever bought me has long sleeves and full pant legs . It's only because I asked . I know that it somewhat bothered him but he never asked my reasoning
Our relationship hasn't really developed much . I could see the glint in his eyes when he looked at me . I could see how he tried to make me feel special every day but I'm so scared . Scared that he might be as sick and twisted as his brother . This is kindness is such a facade . The thought made me sick to my stomach . And I could see that it bothered him . I could see that he wanted to give me his all but I wasn't ready .
Shortly we finished with my appointment and Aleksandr hands me my crutches and leads me out the room with his hand on my lower back .
" стрекоза I'm proud of you . You're doing so well " He rasped
" thank you " I say smiling at him " I'm trying "
" it's more than enough стрекоза"He lead me to my room and he left with a kiss on my forehead saying he had a lot of work to do in his office .
Aleksandr has moved his office across from my bedroom . When I still had all my casts I would need to be turned in my sleep . He said it would be easier but he was right across from me . And he'd be able to attend to me faster .
I was tired out from venting so I decided to take a shower . Moving to the bathroom I removed all my clothes and got underneath the warm sprays . The water removing all the weight that has been on my shoulder today while also encouraging all the intrusive thoughts I've been trying to stay away from
" what If he finds us ? "
" he'll kill me this time I know it "
" what if he knows we're hear and just waiting to attack ? "
" could I ever live a normal life after all of this ?"
YOU ARE READING
Psycho
RomanceNia Johnson is a bar tender in one of the most famous lewd clubs in the country . Dimitri Ivanov is the owner of the club as well as the Don of the Russian mafia. Read to see what happens when an incident causes Nia to lose her memory and Dimitri...