𝓹𝓼𝔂𝓬𝓱𝓸

panic

Mark's pov:-

I've been trying to call fourth from yesterday but still it's not reachable....what the hell did happened!?...I was worried about him...so I went to his home directly but his mom informed me that he is with his friend...

But really as far as I know fourth didn't speak to any of his friends since he went to newzealand but how come he is with them...I really wonder who it is!???

Fourth's pov:-

  I felt something around my waist...it's like someone held me very tightly as if I'll disappear...so I slowly opened my eyes...just to confront the person I love the most.....

As my eyes met his face which is the most handsome even when he is sleeping like a koala...I just couldn't help but remember how I got the privilege to look at him every morning back then....

I wish we could go back to the time when nothing bothered us..when we love each other, when I shouldn't have to think of others to touch him...but I cant right...he belongs to someone else now....where as me...I couldn't do anything but shed  tears......

Phi..gem...I love you.....I slowly whispered....so that he won't hear me and slowly..leaned forward to kiss him...a last kiss...but I was surprised when he opened his eyes....so I backed off...and turn my back to him....but he still encircled his hands around my waist and pulled me closer...so close....that I can hear his heartbeat....

Phi...leave me...I said holding back my tears...

I love you too fourth....I love you allot...he said and  turned me to his side and kissed me...I wanna push him away and run away from there...but no I couldn't do it...I was longing for this kiss too.....so I give in to him...after a deep and passionate kiss he slowly cupped my face and asked me to look at him but I couldn't look at him

Because I know if I look at him I couldn't hold back myself...I'll long for him...but that would mean him cheating on his wife...so I couldn't dare to look at him...he can't be a cheater like me

Fourth...look at me...his hoarse voice called me...but I couldn't look

Phi...leave me...I backed off from him and got up from bed and was about to go out...but he pulled me again...he backhugged me to stop me...

And now I couldn't help but breakdown...

Phi....please leave me..phi...I begged him while crying

No... fourth...please don't leave me again...I couldn't stay away from you...please...don't leave me he begged me while crying

Phi...if you don't leave me now...then it would mean you are cheating on namtan...and I don't want that...she is a good person and she is really perfect for you unlike me who cheated on you....I cried...

Noo....you are the only one I want...he held me even more tightly...

No..phi...iam disgusting....

No...fourth don't say something like that...

I began to walk away from him again as he would convince me if I stay any longer...

Fourth...namtan is the one who made us apart..he stated while crying...

And I was frozen at the spot...did I heard it right...

What do you mean phi..!?

He then slowly came towards me and hugged me...

Phi...what do you mean by namtan breaking us apart!?

Well...she and my mom did this...

Huh!?

They both planned all of this...they spiked your water bottle on that night...so you were unconscious...so it's not your fault.....he slowly patted my back as if to relax me...

Phi...but why would phi namtan do it!?

She loved me...she was jealous with our relation...and you were right back then..mom didn't like you she just wants me to marry women...so please come back to me baby...I can't love without you... everyone betrayed me...please don't leave me...he cried even more loudly...and he held me so tightly that it started to pain...

I just couldn't process everything...so everything was planned??......I hugged him back and cried...finally I wanna leave all the guilt feeling in me....so I didn't cheat you right I asked him for assurance...

No fourth...never....iam sorry for talking to you like that...iam sorry you are in this position...iam sorry because of me all this things happened to you...iam extremely sorry fourth...he begged me as he fell on his knees..

I  held his hands and shook my head to assure him that its not his fault either.....

No...phi..it's not your fault....

As I was convincing him...he suddenly held his head as if he is having a panic attack...

Phi..what happened...phi....I asked him..

He then gestured me to bring some medicine...so I immediately gave him that medicine and made him to sleep...

After sometime he drifted into a deep sleep...and I couldn't move back from him...I held his hand..and he intervened his hands with me while sleeping....

So it's not my fault....but now I am worried about his panic attack...

What was that!?

As far as I remember he never had something like this before so what is this!???

even yesterday when i was said I wanna go back his tone suddenly changed as if its not the gem i know..

what happened to him???IM really worried about him... i gently  kissed his hand that was intervened with mine and then slept beside him cuddling him..

i missed this allot....
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I dont know when but i drifted into deep sleep...but i when i woke up gem is not beside me...i wonder where he had gone...

so i went out to check where he was because i still want  answers for my questions...i want to know what happened between gem and namtan after he found out the truth...

where is phi'namtan???Did they got divorced...???there are allot of questions for which only gem can answer..but he is nowhere to be seen...i started to check all the rooms and very corner of the house..

but no,he wasnt where did he even go???and suddenly i heard a scream....and its more like it was from the basement at first i thought i was hallucinating but no as i stood there and the screams got louder....so i walked towards the source of the sound...but the basement is closed...but how come i heard screams...whose screams were those???

i just couldnt comprehend all these things...what the hell is happening around me??and i heard someone from basement is stepping towards me..so i immediately went from there and hided beside a door but i was stunned...as there was a door behind the book shelf..and gem came from there...what did he do there...whose screams were those???Is phi'gem hiding something from me???im confused...so before he look at me..i ran to the initial room i was in and pretended to sleep...

after few minutes phi'gem entered the room..i didnt know what to do..so i just continued my act...he slowly came towards me and gently removed the hair on my forehead and kissed on my forehead...he then held my hand sat beside me..i can feel that he is looking at me..so i slowly opened my eyes...

aw..did i disturb your sleep baby...

hm..well no phi...

i missed you allot fourth..he said out of blue looking at me..

I missed you too phi...but i need answers for my questions phi..

what are those questions??

well,where is phi'namtan??what happened between you two when you got to know the truth??and what are those pills you have taken before??what the hell is happening??

i dont know..he replied

huh??

after i got know about the truth...i haven't seen mom and namtan..