𝐌𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐘 | callum turner

010, he feels like home

MESSY
010, he feels like home

WE TRY TO LEAVE EARLY, ME AND DREW. Because despite his best efforts to be sociable at the table, I feel his hand grip mine tighter each time he fails to suppress a yawn. Which goes from a once in a half hour occurrence to once every few minutes.

The last time, I turned my head from one of Ryan's stories about a time he accidentally got locked out from the red carpet of his first film premiere — Drew is trying to keep up, I can tell but as his blinks become longer due to the heaviness of his eyes I squeeze his hand and his head turns, the smile that curves his lips slightly lob-sided as I word ' do you want to go back?' from across the table.

his head shakes although I know it's a lie, ' I don't want to make it weird," he mouths back as i pinch my brows and shake my head subtly.

' you won't, they'll understand.' he hums lowly, so I smile gently and squeeze his hand.

' so, do you want to head back?' I ask again and he nods.

' please.' he mouths, I surpress my widening smile as I look back at the group — startled but not surprised as Callum's gaze sits on me, eyes heavy and lips downturned slightly. Most likely watching me and Drew talk in a code not dissimilar to the way we used to, before we knew each other well enough to not even have to part our lips to talk.

I look back at the group, waiting for a moment where I'm able to interject — and when it comes I fake a small cough to gather attention " me and Drew are tired, I think we're gonna head back to the house."

I push out my chair as I notice all the nodding heads and small parting words and waving hands. Until a voice erupts from the pleasantries,

" it's only nine." Callum sounds snarky, as I push my chair in and feel Drew coming in closer, "we're all off tomorrow, stay." he continues.

Drew laughs; and it makes me body tense. It's less of an amused laugh and more of a ' what is this guy saying' kind of laugh. I've heard it once before in the flesh.

In a bar in New York after a show, I think me and Drew were in our first argument. I ran late leaving the show so we missed our reservation at a restaurant he had booked.

After some raised voices and insults that neither of us meant, we ended up in this bar a few buildings down from the restaurant.

Some drunk guy after a few times of trying to start a conversation I didn't want to have pulled up one of my nude scenes in peaky blinders on the stool next to us.

It was only top half and either way I wasn't ashamed of it ( but then again that wasn't the point). And with a tight hold on Drew I managed to stop Drew from reacting, but when the same guy asked Drew if ' they're as nice to hold as they look on screen' ( a direct quote may I add ) and I heard a similar sort of laugh leave his lips. I knew it wasn't going to end well. One angry Drew and thrown drink later, we were kicked out the bar.

" I've been up ten o'clock last night if we're going by American time zones." Drew says, clearly having little patience because he doesn't like Callum. For a multitude of reasons if I'm being honest.

1. he was an ass the few times they've met in person ( I guess...today included)

2. how he handled our friendship, or lack thereof now

3. Drew still thinks Callum and I dated, or hooked up, or had some sort of intimate relationship in our almost decade long friendship.

The third one I can't blame, I wouldn't be too keen on the idea of Drew being in a film with his ex girlfriend, especially as love interests.