Fuzzy. // Ranboo.

Pls read this one gang 😭 (Concerning my absence).

(Changed the title so it'd be in inboxes again, sorry if you've read this already lol)

God I actually HATE filling my fic with massive updates every two weeks it feels so fanfic-ey of that makes sense😭 yk how those one authors are always like posting an unrelated update like once a week like it's a damn message board like come on girl you HAVE ONE ON UR ACC✊😭 So sorry for ANOTHER update but this one's actually important

Anyways gang (I tried to put this on the message board and I realized it was getting long and then I accidentally deleted it and then realized only half of you would see it sooo)

I was just gonna say peep the new bio I put the user for my poetry acc on there cos I wanted to kinda expand my artillery a bit since I've been getting more into writing poetry-esque stuff lately.

I just know you guys are going thru a DROUGHT lately bcs I keep getting stuck on Fuzzy and I wanna be able to give you SOMETHING, but I also realized that most of you won't be able to seek that out because you enjoy the fluffy, comforting aspect of this fic.

My poetry acc is like the exact opposite of that😭 like it gets pretty wild ngl

Idk gang if I'm being honest I used to kind of use my fics as a sort of journal. I'd put the characters through what I was going through or something similar, and use that to get through it or find ways to fix things— stuff just came to me when I was writing and it helped me outside of that a little, yk?
That was when I was in a shitty place and it got better for a long time, hence being able to let that go and focus on only writing fluff for a long time (minus my novel, but that doesn't count bcs it's NOTHING like my life ofc) and I wanna branch back out to something that I can use as an outlet besides the not so healthy things I've been putting myself thru and I don't think it's fair to keep telling you guys "oh no im good" "guys dw I'm working on a new chapter" "I'm coming back in March" when I'm absolutely not 😜🎀

I don't want to quit writing this book. Seeing you guys enjoy it and writing it makes me really happy, but I've lost a lot of motivation recently even for my personal novel.

I just don't wanna put out some shitty chapter that none of us are happy with just because of the pressure of making something that keeps up with what else I've written, because some of these chapters are my best works. I love this book, and I'm not willing to let it go downhill on you guys. I want nothing more than to keep writing for you guys because I miss it but I can't find the motivation to do so right now and even if that upsets me, I have to accept that until the motivation comes back.

I thought the break would be good for me, and it definitely is, but I feel like it honestly needs to be a bit longer. How long? I don't know. I just know that I need to work on myself and get better so that those issues don't bleed into this book that should be far from that. This book is specifically to comfort people, and my writing is really honestly affected by my feelings and how I'm doing.

(Oh this is getting longer than I thought😭 #parasocial does this feel parasocial? My bad if it does ong)

Anyway, I just wanted to be honest with you guys because you've really helped my author dreams come true. You all read something I wrote and you loved it and inspired me to restart my novel and still continue to keep me inspired. It's not fair to you to keep you guys in the dark on something like this bcs telling you guys I'm not good mentally isn't like I'm giving you my fucking address or something✊😭

So yeah. Thanks for (hopefully) reading my rant of an explanation on my continued absence, and an invitation to read my poems (which have become quite personal to me, please be gentle).
(Side note, my poetry acc is meant to be completely anonymous and ik YOU guys know my name and my face but pls don't mention anything to do with specifically me if you comment or something😭 idk gang)

For those of you planning on checking it out— here's a list of very adamant trigger warnings:
• SH
• Suicidal ideation
• Overall a few gross things like bugs ig (only in one so far)

For the record, this is NOT me begging for attention. I just wanted to share something I've grown to love with you guys, like always :), even if it's a little sad

Thank you so much for reading, you guys mean a ton to me. I can try and post some frequent updates on my update board, but I can also give you guys my personal insta if you'd like to be able to know I'm still living and breathing (I'm a very avid story poster)💀

See you soon <3