Dear diary,
I'm kinda bed bound today and when you continue reading you'll know why. I just need to rest. Although my mum has left her work phone at home so any messages she gets on there , I forward it to her. I could just drop it off to her but I really can't walk rn let alone drive.
Eid mobarak xx the fastest Ramadan I've ever had. Ever. The last ten days did drag though. I tried my best with music and Quran. I genuinely did feel at peace and calm this Ramadan. There's a certain calmness and serenity about Ramadan.i also love the vibes at night , city rd is always the best to go to.
Ramadan can be hard for people, but it's a month where people try their best. If you fasted it all (which you should), then well done it's a big achievement and a testament to good character and self discipline.
Firstly, I have wrote a lot just not uploaded. But I'm really happy tonight and the other stuff can wait. So stay tuned for later🙂
Secondly, health issue: I told my mum, she's aware of the diagnosis (I don't wanna say tbh) and two options. Mums always know when something's up anyway. Mums will be mums, she's a worrier. But as long as I look after myself I'll be okay. 🌙🤍
I'm trying to cut down dairy products and sugar although I'm lactose intolerant anyways. Always have oat/soya/almond milk at home. The sugar is hard lol.
Nose bleeds have been on and off but much better now that the weather is cooler. My eyelids had gotten really purple and see through during Ramadan and could see all my veins cos of how bad Ramadan was affecting me but I've made sure to eat good lately so I feel better too. I always feel faint after so I need something small to eat to give me energy
I have wrote just not uploaded yet. The scar he left on my thumb is still there on my thumb. There's a permanent scar on my thumb lollll. It was an accident obviously but I don't like scars lol. I think I scar easily anyway, I have a scar on my ankle from my cat when I gave her a bath and she hated it lol, but still I don't want scars. I was gonna give him lavashak to try. It's randomly gone viral on TikTok and my friends were asking me to try it cos my grandma always makes it for us and we bring it home. I really like it lol
So I gave them to my friends to try too.
Also tried this date halwa dessert that I LOVE. I wanna learn how to make it myself.
I wonnnn tonight's game!! Only by 5 points but my competitive side came out lol🤣
Have broke out quite bad on my face due to hormones / period, but I had a good few months of clear skin and it's normal anyways so it is what it issss. My period started and then stopped and started again. It came for like two days and stopped so I started my period again today. Cravings still here loud and clear too lol . I feel really nauseous and sick tho, the pain is uncomfortable . I am meant to be going out but I don't think I'll be able to. Think I might be sick today.
I was just sick lol. It's more nauseating than painful idk how to explain it but never felt anything like it. Only been leaving my bed to go pee and change my pad and I have to walk bent over holding my stomach😭 really need to eat something but I can't
I do need a blood test soon but I'm so done with needles. I'm not scared of them, they don't bother me but I'm just tired of it.
My neighbour (who backed into my car) who has known me since I was 2 years old came to our house today, my dad invited him (I had no idea so I walked down without a hijab lol, went back up and wear one), and my dad ended up leaving and my mum wasn't there either so I counted the money and stuff and he invited me to see the horses in his stable, I was like immmm a little scaaaredddd. He's such a sweetheart tho. Idk what to do with the car tho🚗🤷🏻♀️😩
Our opposite neighbours rang our door and gave us a happy Eid card and a bouquet of flowers. They do this every year and it's the most thoughtful thing ever. They're probably one of the most thoughtful humans I've ever come across.
A patient in work recognised me from previously when she had come in for another op, and she was like you have such a good, kind spirit and you're likeable and I was like aw no one has ever said that to me before 😭 she was giving me hair places to go to, she lives by A actually. She mentioned one and I googled it and seems decent.
