Abandoned

ikyk

If I know better, I'll stay.
"Flashes of treachery in your fucking face–"
apologies for the foulness I uttered then
but it's the pain of speaking up for me.

If you were wiser, then why you didn't speak?
"Excitement is fading; you lack initiative–"
turned me on and led me into nothing,
washed your hands even though we're both guilty.

I once believed you'd turn my deep blues golden,
but it ages since, still, my bedroom's frozen;
I said, 'Always and forever,' You said, 'We'll be together, '
but here we are– we're two different chapters.

The way you kiss me is first in history,
hold your hand the way old folks did,
make believe a life with you next to me,
and now I'm nothing left but misery.

You're my holy ghost, my medicine–
the only body I long in my sheets;
my silver bullet; never waste your time,
recall the promise I made on that night–
I know, you know.

If your eyes could talk, then it would be:
"The best love stories found in movie screens, '
the conversations seem to have reached their final winter
and all I have to do is to watch it wither.

If I am careless, then I didn't try to ask:
"Is there a way to bring it back to life?"
but all was left was silence waltzing in the dark–
you never went easy on this hardest part.

I fooled myself into thinking that this was just a phase
just like the moon above and its many faces,
you make believe me in this nothing nonetheless–
you'll be a foreign feeling I am familiar with.

The way you call me lits up my spirit,
my arms around yours are my lifeline;
your words a bomb that'll explode in any minute,
you're an elephant guest, and my mind's a cabin.

You came and saw me – a territory,
conquered my space filled with melancholy,
I neither see nor think that it could be
the most profound hurt that I will ever feel–
and I know you know,
you always know.

Your careless words,
I bid goodbye,
you watch in silence,
as I left that night.

Your shoulder's cold,
I clenched my fist;
you always know,
and I will always be–
I know, you know.