Defeat Tossakan (English Translation)

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I pursed my lips tightly and looked at P'Phak with a feeling of guilt in my eyes, I had not mentally prepared myself to see my brother sitting in the middle of the room again.

"Mr. Phak."

"Thank you very much for coming hise and bringing Rakkun. Can I talk to my little brother in private?" …

 P'Phak quickly cut off any intentions Plerng might have had. But no matter how dissatisfied he was, Thotsakan always maintained his good manners.

The tall man nodded, looked at me and gave me a slight smile  and then walked back to the car that was parked in front of the house.

 I looked at his broad back with sad eyes, took a deep breath, and turned to look at my brother. I clutched my shirt tightly as P'Phak looked at me disappointed.

"Phak..." 

 My brother narrowed his eyes upon hearing his name and glared at P'Thongfah, who swallowed the rest of the words and choked them at the back of his throat.

"Should I still be called 'big brother'?" ... 

P'Phak closed his eyes and told me with a trembling voice.

" P'Phak "  ... 

I called him softly. I knew he was sorry I lied, but I hadn't meant to. I didn't do it on purpose. I didn't want him to be sad like that.

"I... Hikss... I'm an inconsiderate brother, right?" ... 

Big tears began to fall from the corners of his beautiful eyes.

I clenched my fists so hard my nails dug into the flesh. I didn't want to see him cry, I didn't want to disappoint my only brother, but he had. I was the one who didn't deserve to be called brother.

"I'm sorry."

"I want to be alone for a while" ... 

P'Phak walked away towards the back of the house leaving me with a feeling of guilt so overwhelming it was almost suffocating.

I looked at P'Thongfah with sad eyes and asked him with a trembling voice.

"Are you very angry with me?"

"Phak isn't mad at you. But he's mad at himself for not taking good care of you like he promised your parents."

"I made P'Phak feel sad again."

"Don't blame yourself for it. I think he will understand your reasons, but he just can't accept that his younger brother is being bullied by someone."

"I wasn't bullied"  … 

I was quick to explain and defend the guy they believed to be a ' bully ' . I didn't want P'Phak to hate him... Uhm... Even though he really bullied me, I can assure you that he never forced me to have sex with him.

"Should I be mad at you? What happened?  Why didn't you tell me anything?" ... 

P'Thongfah said in a stressed tone.

It's my fault he's angry too. I feel so guilty I want to hit my head really hard.

" P'Fah , don't be mad at me. P'Phak being sad like that already makes me feel too guilty... Please" ..

 I said softly. If everyone is mad at me, I'm going to be in trouble.

Phi sighed dejectedly and gently shook his head.