Unexpected

Chapter 34

“What’s your girl emergency?” Silver asks as she closes my bedroom door. 

“Everything!” I cry out. 

Silver sighs and sits next to me on my bed. “First off I need to know what everything is.” 

“Emery just spilled that he loves me not even an hour ago.” 

Silver grins. “Eeep!! I knew he loved you!” I narrow my eyes at her, she rolls her eyes. “oh come on! You didn’t think I want you and my brother together did I? Sure you guys are cute together but come on! You and Emery? That’s what I call sex! You two would be perfect together! You’re so sweet and kind and Emery’s so badass! You two would be ahhh! I wanted to keep my mouth shut because I needed you to see how blind you are but since that’s not happening,” Silver rants. 

I sigh and fall back on my bed. “I’m so confused,” I mumble. 

“Sweetie, you picked Noah so fast because you know he wouldn’t hurt you. You need to take risks. You and Noah already have a past with each other. Emery wants to be your future. Yeah, I would love for us to be sister in laws but Cedes, its Emery. Its always been Emery, why do you think you haven’t just forgotten him when he left? You still kept holding on..” 

I close my eyes. Why was it so hard to chose? But Silver is right… If I loved Noah I wouldn’t be thinking about actually going with Emery. I don’t get why I can’t just chose to one! I want Noah….but I already had a past with Noah. Do I want a future with Noah or Emery? 

Noah is the perfect boyfriend and maybe that was the problem. Maybe I needed some excitement in a relationship. But I don’t want to lose Noah. I love Noah, I really do and maybe, again, that’s the problem. I’m so caught up in what Noah and I were like before we broke up that I don’t want to take chances. Again maybe that was the problem.. Noah and I have already been an item. We’ve had our share of things. 

What if I needed a new share of things. 

“Silver, I’ll be right back,” Silver nods and I crutch out of my room and into the game room. “can we talk?” I question as I fall onto the bed and his eyes move away from the TV and to mine. 

“What’s up?” Cade asks as he mutes the TV. 

I lay next to him and give him a hug. “Do you think…do you think Noah and I’s relationship is dead because we’ve already dated?” 

Cade shrugs. “I mean, honestly no one else’s opinions matters besides yours. If you feel like it is, then it is. You can’t have someone telling you your opinion,” Cade says. 

I let out a deep breath. “This is about Emery.” 

Cade chuckles. “I figured but Cedes before you make your descion, I just want to let you know whoever you pick. Pick someone who will treat you right, alright? I don’t want to see you hurt.” 

I don’t want to see myself hurt either. 

*

I wish someone could make a fast forward button. I would fast forward past all this confusion and hurt and see who I chose. Maybe I don’t even chose Emery or Noah. There was just so much going on that everything couldn’t even be wrapped around in my head. I was so confused that literally I couldn’t even think about anything but Noah and Emery. 

Why, why am I so confused. I shouldn’t be so confused but yet I am and its pissing me off. I was never like this! I was always one to pick and chose but nope. My feelings are so mixed and shuffled that I can’t even pick out the feelings I was feeling. I thought it was Noah! I really did because my head was so caught up in our past relationship that I couldn’t even open my eyes to see its always been the same thing with Noah. He’s too perfect. And I am definitely not perfect.