Unexpected

Chapter 35

I wake up to the sun shining in my eyes. I groan and slowly let my eyes open, letting them adjust to the sudden brightness. 

“You really need to get a curtain,” I mumble once I feel Emery shifting. 

“I know,” Emery whispers. I move so I’m laying on my side and I look at Emery. He’s rubbing his eyes and yawning, I chuckle. Emery looks over at me. “what’s so funny?” he questions, his voice hoarse. Okay, I don’t know about you but I find a mans morning voice the sexiest thing ever possible. Damn, I was loving Emery’s voice. 

“People usually yawn when their tired,” I reply. 

Emery rolls his eyes but cracks a small smile. “So what happened last night?” Emery asks. 

I shrug. “Just something with Noah.” 

“You can tell me,” Emery says. 

I raise an eyebrow. “You really want to hear my Noah issues?” 

Emery shrugs. “If it helps.” 

I sigh. “I don’t know we just got in a fight and just crap went down. Its honestly whatever, I don’t care anymore,” I tell him. Emery nods then sits up. 

“Shit happens.” 

I laugh. “Indeed it does. Where’s J-Dog?” I question as I sit up and look around his room. 

“Probably with Cade, he loves him more than anything.” 

“Everything loves Cade.”

I bite my bottom lip and breathe for a minute, just finally relax and try and find what I was feeling this morning. For the past couple mornings I haven’t been able to just relax and know what I was feeling. So this felt nice and I felt what I was definitely feeling this morning. I was feeling nothing. Absolutely nothing and for once feeling nothing never felt so good. I loved it. 

And that is why I did what I did. For once it was my turn to kiss Emery, not drunk. Emery was shocked to say the least. Though after a couple seconds, he pulled back. 

“Cedes, if you’re doing this to eff with my feelings then stop now,” Emery warns. 

Noah I guess kind of made my decision last night. Why would I want to be with someone who I piss off.. Why would I want to be in a relationship with someone I already have a past with. And why would I want to be with someone whose perfect? 

It didn’t make since to me until last night that everything isn’t as it seems. What I see right now is Emery in my future. I don’t know how or where but all I know is that I want him there with me. 

Noah’s off to college next year and he can screw any girl he wants. I just won’t be there when he calls to tell me because I’ll already be gone. Noah and I were meant to stay in the past. 

*

 “But you make me wanna act like a girl! Paint my nails and wear high heels! Yes, you make me so nervous! That I just can’t hold your hand!” Silver, Brittany, Alexandra, and I sing as we run into the game room where the guys were playing games. We start shaking our butts as the guys look over at us. “You make me glow, but I cover up! Won’t let it show, so I’m! Puttin’ my defences up! 'Cause I don’t wanna fall in love! If I ever did that! I think I’d have a heart attack!”