His Beautiful Liar

Chapter Twelve

Naalimpungatan na minulat ni lauren ang mga mata niya. She was disoriented. But what happen last night was still vivid in her mind.

She knew how she surrender herself to a man she loved most. She gave everything. Even her life.

Bigla ay napatingin siya sa lalaking katabi niya na payapang natutulog habang yakap yakap siya.

Hindi siya magsasawang titigan ito. Ito ang pangarap niya. Ang isang araw na magising na ito ang una niyang makikita. Mukha nito ang unang bubungad sa kanya.

At ito ang babati sa kanya ng magandang umaga.

Hinaplos niya ang mukha nito sabay bulong. "I love you!"

Medyo gumalaw ito at ngumiti, tila ba narinig ang sinabi niyaat sumagot ng. "I love you too."

Impit siyang napangiti. Tinatanong niya ang sarili niya. Totoo ba ito? O pati siya ay nananaginip din.

"Denise." Jericko whisper in his sleep.

Parang bomba iyon na sumabog sa pandinig niya. Ang pag asang nabuo sa isip niya ay pantasya lang pala.

Kahit nakuha niya pala ito ng isang gabi ay hindi pa rin pala niya nakuha ang puso nito.

Kaya ba tinugon nito ang lahat ng halik at haplos niya? Dahil ang nasa isip nito ay ang asawa nito?

Naging panakip butas lang pala siya. Dahil nahulog siya sa isang gabing hindi para sa kanya.

Ngayon malinaw na sa kanya ang lahat. Mahal nito ang asaw nito. At hindi siya tanga para ipagpilitan ang sarili niya.

Dahil kung ipagpipilitan niya ang sarili niya. At lalaban pa rin siya kahit na alam niyang talo na siya. Ano ang pwedeng itawag sa kanya? Kabit? Kerida? Mistress? O other woman?

Kahit ano pa yon isa pa rin ang kakalabasan. Makikihati lang siya ng pagmamahal.

Dahil ang pagmamahal na dati lang ay para sa kanya. Ngayon ay pagaari na ng iba. She was seven long years late. And nothing will change the fact that he's totally get over her.

Dahan-dahan siyang bumaba sa kama, na hindi kailangan itong magising. Dahil sa oras na makita siya nito ay muli kakamuhian na naman siya.

Ituturing na isang maruming babae dahil pumatol sa isang may asawang lalake.

For him. This is not making love. This is what they called sex. A pure sex. One night stand for that matter.

Walang halaga at walang kahulugan. Unless, he was thinking his wife while having sex with her.

How painful is it? Nagpadala siya sa bugso ng damdamin niya.

Mabilis niyang pinulot ang mga damit niya at isinuot. She need to get away in this place. Wherever she is. Mas makakatulong sa kanya kung lalayo na siya dito.

Habang sinusuot niya ang huling damit niya. Nanatili siyang nakatingin dito. Payapa ang tulog nito.

What she notice is? He was sleeling with a smile on his lips. Alam niya na masaya ito. Masaya ito because he was thinking his wife while kissing her.

Patuloy na tumulo ang mga luha niya. It's now a goodbye. Bukas ipapasa niya ang resignation letter niya. Effective tomorrow.

She don't have any face to see him. Hindi niya gustong akusahan siya nito matapos siyang ipagtabuyan at pagsalitaan.

She was hurt but he was hurt too. Alam niya iyon. At karapatan nitong magalit sa kanya.

For the last time, she gave him a sweet kiss and caress his face. This will be the last.

"I'm sorry for leaving you seven years ago. I'm sorry for giving you up. And i'm sorry for not giving a fight for us. My insecurities troubled me. At natatakot ako para sa'tin. Echo,when i say i love you. I really do. I love you, goodbye."

Mahinang bulong niya habang hinahaplos ang mukha nito.

She step backward and hold her tears. This will be the last time she will cry. And this will be the last time she will see him.

Before she shut the door close, she cry. Cry like she's the only one who owe the pain. As if she's the one who need that.

Wish i could be the one...
The one who could give you love...
The kind of love..
You really need..
Wish i could say to you..

That i'll always stay with you...
But baby that's not me..

You need someone,
Willing to give their heart and soul to you.

Promise you forever,
Baby that something i can't do...

Oh., i could say that..

I'll be all you need...
But that would be a lie...

I know i'd only hurt you..
I know i'd only make you cry...

I'm not the one you needing...
I love you, goodbye...

I hope someday you can,..
Find someway to understand...

I'm only doing this for you..
i don't really wanna go...

But deep in my heart i know...
This is the kindest thing to do...

You'll find someone..
Who'll be the one that i could never be..

Who'll give you something better..
Than the love you'll find with me...

Oh, i could say that i'll be all you need...

But that would be a crime..

I know i'd only hurt you...
I know i'd only make you cry

I'm not the one you needing...

"I love you, goodbye"