Dreaming with you

Chapter 13

Sebastian

All I could think of is that I didn't have enough time with her. Those few days were nothing. Just a drop in the ocean. I savored her every kiss, touch and word. I looked at her when she was occupied with something else, I wanted to imprint her in my memory. I knew from the moment our hands touched in that restaurant that I am going to tell her. I didn't want to, I was selfish bastard who wanted to spend every single moment with her, and left her ignorant of what I truly am. To have her underneath me to feel hen naked body against mine, to take her again and again and again, until neither of us can move any more. I told myself that those were just fantasies. She will never want me.

In the moment I tasted traces of her sweet blood in my mouth I knew I need to tell her everything. I just liked her too much not to. I had control over myself, I wouldn't attach her, that much was true. But she deserved not to be deceived. I was terrified of her reaction.

"Bastian, please tell me, what Is happening, I feel like I am missing something here." I saw on her face that she was a little bit scared, like she knew something bad is going to happen.

I led her to the kitchen table and we both sit. "First, I want to tell you how sorry I am for not telling you sooner. I guess I wanted some time with you. Even just a few days. "

"Don't beat around the bush Sebastian. Are you married?" she frowned.

"No", I even managed a smile," I am definitely not married, and I don't have anyone except you. I want that to be clear. I like you very much Amanda, if that wasn't the case, I wouldn't be telling you this."

"Telling me what? Are you sick?" I saw horror on her face, and leaned across the table to kiss her. She hesitated but kissed me back. It was short and sweet and probably our last kiss.

"No", I reassured her and saw relief. She touched her chest.

"You scared me to death Bastian. I had worst possible scenario in my head."

"Is that worse than being a vampire?" I don't know why I blurted that out like that. but it was done.

"Don't joke Bastian, tell me, what is bothering you."

"If that was true, would you run?" I asked her. "Would you be scared of me?"

She didn't move an inch, even though I saw in her eyes she clearly understood where this is going. "Is it?"

"Would you believe me? Do you believe in those kinds of things?"

"Are you asking me this because of my book? If you are it is not funny." But she knew it was not the reason. And I loved her more because of that.

"Please Amanda, please, just answer me."

"I don't believe in anything until I see it with my own eyes. Now, stop postponing anything you want to say and just tell me. I don't like tense situations."

"Can't you guess? Didn't I give you enough clues?"

"I need you to prove that to me. I need to know that you are not lunatic." She said and I couldn't read her in that moment. She had no emotion on her face, in her voice.

I let my teeth elongate and opened my mouth. Thanks to my supernatural hearing I could hear beating of her heart. It was drumming for a moment but started to calm almost immediately.

"Enough proof? Or you want me to do something else?" I waited for the reaction. For something. I didn't look at her. I couldn't bear to see disgust on her face. Even less scare.

Then I felt her hand on mine and I raised my head. She was looking at me curiously but not afraid. "What did you expect? To curse you and throw holy water on you? I don't have a cross on me."

"Please, just don't be afraid of me, ever."

"I am not", she said almost automatically .

"I think that you are in state of shock. No way you are this calm", I panicked instead of her.

In that moment, William came into the house. He used the door and I was thankful for that. maybe him poofing here would be trigger for panic attack.

"Is he..?" She asked tilting her head in his direction.

"I will explain everything, Don't leave." It was not a request. It was me pleading her to stay. I stood to greet him and to tell him to leave me to handle this.

"I am not in shock", she said. "Well, maybe I am, her eyes widened a bit. Until this moment I had no idea vampires existed. And now you are one. But I am not afraid of you." She put her palm on my cheek gently stroking it with her thumb. I closed my eyes and savored the touch. "How can I be", she continued. "I lied all bloody under you when we fell and what did you do? You took me to the hospital Bastian. You cleaned my cut every day. I see the way you look at me, I am not blind. I saw hunger, but for me, for my body."

I am not a saint Amanda, don't fool yourself, I took her hand off my face. She needed to know this. I want your blood as well. We drink it. In old times we did it directly from people. Now we have blood bags. But never forget what we are. Predators. And on the food chain we are above you. "

"When you say it like that it sounds awful." But she didn't remove her hand from mine. I realized it was maybe because I was holding her too tight. I released it but she still didn't move.

"It is", I confirmed.

"Why did you tell me? You could have fooled me for a long time, and I would never guess."

I knew this question will come. But I was still unprepared. " I don't know what you think you know about us Amanda. What you have written in your book is close, really close to the truth. It was the reason I was that obsessed with you. I followed you to the university. I needed to know if you knew something or it was just a coincidence. There are people who want to kill us. And it is my duty to protect our secret. To protect my family."

"So it wasn't a coincidence that we met there?" She asked cautiously.

"No, it wasn't, but I soon realized you knew nothing. You just had very rich imagination. But you intrigued me. I had this need to get to know you. And in every single moment we spent together I fell little more in love with you. It is the truest thing I can say to you."

"I don't say that I don't believe you, but, why? You need to understand that it is hard to comprehend. You can have any girl out there. I am not insecure, a am just wondering."

"I had girls, I had women , I will not lie. A lot of them. And I even loved some of them, in a way, and they loved me. But in all my years of living, I haven't been this afraid that someone would leave me. No one made my heart race like when I am having you in my arms. I've never told anyone. And the main reason I told you this soon is a really selfish reason.

"What?" she whispered.

"If more time passed and you left me, it would break my heart. And I have a lot of time to live with a broken heart."

She had tears in her eyes when she stood. I though this is it. She is maybe not afraid, but she is smart enough not to fall in love with a vampire. But I was wrong. She was as stupid as I am to fall in love with her so quickly. She walked behind my chair and hugged me resting her head on my shoulder. "I won't break yours, if you promise me not to break mine", she whispered in my ear after she kissed my cheek.

"I swear."