You belong with me

Chapter 7

I'm in the room, it's a typical Tuesday night

I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like

And she'll never know your story like I do

It's 9 pm and Karlie is still not home. Maybe she stays at Toni's. I don't want to think about what they're doing right now. Straight out of nowhere I decide to text her.

T: How's it going? Everything ok?

A few seconds later I receive an answer.

K: Yeah, it's good, why r u asking?

T: Well it can't be that good, when u r texting back within 5 seconds...

K: Ok fine. It's not as perfect as I hoped it would be. It's actually pretty weird. We don't know what to talk about. That has never ever happened before.

T: Then y are u still there?

K: Because normally I always stay the night...

T: So u r planning on staying the night but all you do is hanging on your phone.

K: Basically yeah.

K: Taylor I don't know what to do.

K: We both can feel the awkwardness between us and we tried a lot of things to avoid it but it doesn't help.

K: Like you know kissing, cuddling and all this stuff – it feels strange. Not even sex feels that good anymore.

K: And our sex is normally priceless. ;)

I was just drinking water when I read that message and I immediately spit it out. As fast as possible I run into the bathroom to grab a towel and dry my MacBook. Great job Taylor. After that I think of something to text back but my brain is empty. Why did she have to tell me about the sex? God I don't want to think about Karlie having sex with someone else than me. And now she confirmed that she had sex with Toni today. Amazing.

T: ... TMI Karlie. I really don't think we should talk about sex. What about unicorns? I love unicorns!

K: Ou sorry Tay! Now your virgin eyes have read something dirty the first time.

T: Please stop!

K: And you know one time we did it in a shower stall at the school's gym. After a volleyball match. We were both sweaty and then it just happened. :P

T: KARLIE KLOSS WOULD U PLS STOP!

K: I made her moan so loud that our coach came in to ask if somebody's hurt because he heard someone moaning. God that was hot... ;)

T: I'LL BLOCK U I SWEAR TO GOD KARLIE!

I'm about to throw up at that thought. Right now I really hate my brain because all I do is picture it.

K: Okay okay I'll stop. But I bet I could make you moaning too ;) I'm good at this... :P

What? Karlie's flirting with me. Dirty flirting. I don't know what to answer so I don't text back. Then I start laughing. Why am I having this conversation with Karlie? Two weeks ago Karlie and I didn't even talk. Today we're talking about sex. So much has changed so fast. Two weeks ago all I did was dreaming of her and thinking about her and imagining conversations we'll never have. But have my feelings changed too? My crush on her was gigantic but what is it now? I feel kind of empty when I'm away from her. Her smile has the power to make my day brighter even though it's just a small thing, I love it. No matter what she's wearing, I'm not able to take my eyes off of her. I don't know if anyone is. She is just beautiful. The way her green eyes light up and shine when she's talking about something she's passionate about. When she's nervous, she plays with her hair, when she's embarrassed she bites her fingers and when she's excited she doesn't know what to do with her hands and that's the reason why she makes weird gestures. Before going to bed she always drinks a cup of tea and she loves scrambled eggs for breakfast. Her favorite tv series is House Of Cards. All these little things make me fall in love with her everyday again. Wait what? 'Make me fall in love with her' I guess it's true. I guess I'm falling for her. Very hard. The thought that I'll probably never have her is just horrible. I'm far away from perfect and she deserves somebody who is just 100% perfect. She is pure sunshine. I once tried to find something bad about her. It took me two weeks till I finally accepted that there is nothing bad about her. She is just perfection. I never thought that something like that is possible. How is she even human? It's not even her body that fascinates me so much about her. Of course her eyes, her smile, her cheek bones, her toned arms and legs, her shiny abs, her cute butt and her beautiful boobs are very attractive and something I'm constantly dreaming of – not only in the shower, but also her mind, the way she thinks, the way she behaves and acts – it makes her the most beautiful person on earth. I don't believe in god but I think everybody needs something to believe in. Whether it's a thing, a place, a quote, a word, a thought, an animal, a plant or a person. Everybody should believe in something that makes him happy and encourages him to do great things. I believe in Karlie. When I'm thinking about her I get inspired to write my songs, I get inspired to live healthy and her smile makes me believe in myself. This tall brown haired girl, who reminds me of a giraffe, makes my life better. She is all I ever need. Everything I ever wanted. I love her.

„Taylor! Karlie's here to visit you!", my mom shouts. Wait what? I'm still half asleep with my eyes closed when I hear a giggle. My eyes shoot open and with a more than surprised look on my face I stare at a very tall girl, wearing a black hoodie with rolled up sleeves and black leggings. „Why is one of the Men In Black in my room?" She laughs. „How do you do this?" „What?" „Being funny even though you're still sleeping?" „I'm capable of multi-tasking. I'm actually really talented. I'm god. No wait wait wait that's not what we should be talking about. Why are you in my room? Don't tell me it's already afternoon or something I was awake like 40 minutes ago and it was 4:27 am." „It's actually 10:17 am and I'm here because I wanted to apologize. These messages yesterday were weird and yeah – I'm sorry." „Oh my god. You're apologizing? I mean I think I can accept it but why exactly are you apologizing? I'm not even angry at you!" „Well you didn't text back yesterday so I thought you were mad.", she answered sheepishly. I laugh. God she's cute. „I didn't know what to text back to dirty messages that's all!" „Oh. Well then I shouldn't have worried about that as much as I did. I might have not slept last night and went home at like 5 in the morning and waited since then more or less patiently for you to wake up till I couldn't take it anymore. That seems now quite ridiculous." I stare at her with an open mouth. „You worried about me not texting you back?" I couldn't believe it. She blushes. „Yeah, I mean I don't want you to be mad at me." I smile. „That's cute Kloss!" As a reaction I get a light hit. „I'm not cute I'm gangstaaaa. I mean I'm a man in black!" She sticks her tongue out. How can she look so damn sexy while doing a weird face? „By the way Taylor: You're hot without make-up. Especially when you just woke up." I have not thought about that. A full styled Karlie with perfect make-up and outfit grins at me. „Yeah, thank you.", I answer sarcastically. „No no Tay I mean it! You look beautiful! I like your natural look." I blush and she smiles. „You're a charmer Karlie Elizabeth Kloss." „I'm a person who always says the truth Taylor Alison Swift. And a person who always gets what she wants." In that moment she starts to tickle me. „Karlie stop!", I scream but she doesn't and it doesn't take long till we have a real tickle war. After about 15 minutes we both lay on our backs in my bed, staring at the ceiling, holding our stomachs because they hurt so much from all the laughing, trying to catch our breaths. „That was intense.", I state. „That was awesome. I didn't pictured myself laying in your bed, trying to catch my breath because of a tickle war. The tickle war part is weird the rest is realistic.", she anwers. We both laugh. „Do you actually know how awesome you are Karlie?" The brown haired girl giggles. „Of course I know that Tay. But thanks for reminding me." „No seriously! You're so cool, you're hot, you're perfect in every way possible. I'm glad that I know you and I'm sorry for everyone who doesn't." „Thank you. I ignore the fact that you're totally flirting with me and just take it as a compliment." „Whaaaat? I'm not flirting I'm just being nice." She laughs. „Yeah Tay of course. By the way: On Wednesday is Dylan's party. Do you want to come with me?" „A party on a Wednesday? There's school on Thursday!" „Yeah but it's a birthday party. It's not his fault that his birthday is on a Wednesday this year.", Karlie answers sarcastically. „Come on you nerd! Pleaaaase!", she adds with puppy eyes. My heart melts. God girl what are you doing with me? „I'm sorry Karlie. Nobody would be happy if I would be there. I'm not the big party girl. And I have a date on Wednesday. It's pretty serious. His name is Netflix." „Ou so he turned you straight or what?", Karlie laughs. I slap her lightly. „Well at least he has time for me and gives me what I need whenever I want it." „I'm pretty sure he can't give you what I could give you...", she says with a smirk before she sticks her tongue out and starts to move it a little. Oh my god. I blush but I try to be cool: „Well there are enough sex scenes on Netflix soooo..." We both laugh and I stand up to get dressed. I decide to try something so I don't go into the bathroom to change but do it right in front of Karlie. As I'm standing there in my red bra I watch her staring at me. She is totally checking me out, her mouth is slightly open and she doesn't even notice that I'm looking at her. Her eyes stop for a few seconds at my breasts when I ask her teasingly: „Like what you see?" She snaps back to reality and blushes harder than ever before. „I mean yeah you're hot but it's not the first time I've seen a girl in her bra so yeah. Nice body though. You can be proud for sure." It's so cute how she tries to cover her embarrassement. „Let's go downstairs. What about fruit salad for lunch?" Karlie nods. I grab her hand and drag her after me.