You belong with me

Chapter 12

I'm sitting in my room, playing guitar when I see them. Toni and Karlie are in Karlie's room. I can't believe it. Earlier I talked to Ed and he confirmed that Toni cheated on Karlie and now? Now that bitch is in Karlie's room again, sitting on her bed as if nothing has happened! How can Karlie be so stupid? How can she be so blind and not see that Toni is an asshole, who doesn't deserve her? I close the curtains so I don't have to see them any longer but I'm angry. How on earth can Karlie get back together with a cheating whore but still be pissed at me? I texted her like a thousand times but no reply. I miss her. I miss her texts, her weird actions, her smile. I miss her. The worst thing is, that I don't know if we will ever go back to normal. What if our friendship is over? I always wanted more than that but living without her is worse than 'only' being friends with her. I lay down on my bed, face in my pillow. That's when the tears start falling again. I've cried a lot since our fight.

My vibrating phone wakes me up. I must have fallen asleep while crying. I grab my phone and see a picture of Karlie kissing my cheek. She's calling me. I sigh and decide to ignore it. I can't talk to her because I am more than pissed that she forgave Toni for cheating. I never thought that she would be like that. Obviously she believes that everybody deserves a second chance but Toni fucked up big time so forgiving cheating is not kind or anything it's just simply naive or in other words dumb. The incoming call has finally stopped, so I check my phone. 28 missed calls and 9 new messages from Karlie. Great. I open the first one.

K: Taylor we have to talk!

Yeah no Karlie, I don't think so. I delete them all, the other ones without reading. I don't want her to tell me that she is back with Toni and so happy and that she will love only her for the rest of her life. I don't need her to crush my heart totally after breaking it in two the other night.

"Honey! Wake up! How are you today?" My mom. "Mom I'm fine!", I answer annoyed. Just let me sleep. "Great! Now get up or do you want to be late for school?" "School?" "It's Friday darling!", I hear my dad shout, clearly amused. "Ugh!" "Don't be so grumpy! Just come down for breakfast!" I grab the sheets and hold on tightly to calm myself down and keep myself from saying something stupid. That fight with Karlie fucked me up and I just can't be the happy, carefree person my parents want to see.

Finally schools over. I couldn't pay attention to anything today, but honestly - I didn't even try to. I'm walking home alone today because Ed is visiting his grandma but I'm actually pretty happy about that because his constant talking and good mood would have been challenging for my nerves and I don't want to loose another friend. "Taylor!" I hear someone shout. I know this voice. Karlie. "TAYLOR! Taylor I have to talk to you!" I walk faster but it doesn't take long till I feel a hand on my shoulder stopping me. "Taylor!" "What?" I angrily shout, turning around. Her expression is shocked, that was clearly not the reaction she expected. "I... I-" "Just stop it Karlie. I don't want to hear it." I say, starting to walk again. "No Taylor wait!", she stops me again and stands now in front of me. She's hot. Fuck off voice-in-my-head. "I'm sorry! I wanted to apologize to you! You were just trying to help and comfort me and I was a gigantic asshole. I am genuinely sorry Tay! I was so angry at Toni and because I couldn't talk to her I took my anger out on you and I am really really sorry for that! I know I was a bitch but I just hope you can forgive me because our friendship is so important to me. I need you Taylor!" "Karlie, I really want to forgive you, believe me because our friendship was really important to me too. But I can't be friends with someone who is weak. And it's weak to forgive someone who has cheated on one and just be in a relationship with someone you don't even love anymore just because you're afraid of what could possibly happen if you break up. You're afraid of letting go. You're rather unhappy than brave enough to end something and start something new. I understood you back than but since Toni cheated on you and you took her back? I've lost any respect for you. I'm sorry Karlie, I really am but I don't think I could be friends with you after that." "What?? What do you mean with taking Toni back?" "I'VE SEEN YOU YESTERDAY! I've seen you with Toni..." "Taylor! Toni and I broke up yesterday! She was there because she wanted to explain and apologize. I wouldn't take her back!" "You broke up with her?" "YES! I mean she cheated on me! But beside from that, we both were clearly not happy anymore so yeah - we aren't a couple anymore." She broke up with her. I give her a gigantic hug. "I am really sorry for you Karlie but I think it was the right decision. I missed you.", I mumble into her neck. I could feel her arms tighten around me. "I missed you too Taylor!" She kisses my cheek and I can't stop myself from blushing. "Uhm Tay I was wondering if you'd like to come to go to the movies with me tonight because otherwise I'll be in my room crying. I'd be really thankful for a little distraction and I'm paying. I was a jerk and I want to make it up to you." I smile. Technically it's probably not a date but it sounds a lot like one. On top of that it'd be with a single Karlie Kloss. I've been waiting for ages for this. "I'd love to. But obviously I'm picking the movie." The taller girl gives me her 100% sunshine smile and answers: "I think I can live with that. I'll pick you up at 8."

We're sitting in the cinema, watching Cats & Dogs. "We're surrounded by kindergarteners!", Karlie mumbles. I giggle. "It was the only movie about cats!" She sighs but laughs.

"The dogs have won!" Karlie teases me. "This movie was so unrealistic! Like for real: Cats are way more intelligent than dogs it's just logical that the cat wins!" "Really? That's the unrealistic part of the movie? Well besides that you have to deal with the truth Cat Lady... Dogs are awesome." "Never Kar! Cats are gods and godesses..." She puts an arm around me. "Anyway... I liked the evening. Thanks for being here." I smile trying to hide my blushed cheeks. "You're cute when you blush you know that right?" She giggles and I poke her in the side. "Heyyy!" She starts tickling me. "Stop Karlie stop! I can't breathe!" I say, interrupted by laughter. "I really liked the evening too Kar. We should do this again sometime." The brown haired girl laughs. "You mean watching a movie for kids where you still cover your eyes at some moments? Or you're commenting how unrealistic it is that the nice family adopts the nice dog instead of the evil cat?" I bite my lip and look into her eyes. The moonlight makes her eyes sparkle and right now she doesn't look human. She looks unbelievably more beautiful. "You're pretty." I say before putting a hand over my mouth because that wasn't meant for saying out loud. Karlie simply smiles. "Thank you. I really like compliments from hot girls." Why on earth has Karlie Kloss the power to make me forget about breathing with one simple sentence? She takes my hand in hers and I get goosebumps. Her hand fits in mine like it's made just for me. It feels so right. Together we're walking to her car and on the way home we don't talk. It's a comfortable silence though, we're just enjoying each others presence.