Diary of an Average Christan Teen Girl.

July 9th, 2015

4:53 A.M.

Hey Jesus... It's been awhile.. but um, my Dad lost his job last week, they are still going to pay him for 6 months or until he gets another job, but I won't be surprised if I go to public highschool in the fall, we just won't have the money for us to be homeschooled anymore. Both of my parents are searching for jobs now. My world has been flipped upside down. My Mom won't be home all the time. I'm supposed to trust You, but it's hard right now. I'm going to have to deal with Emily everyday, Chad too. I'm sorry that I haven't talked to You in awhile, I just.. I didn't feel like it. I know that I should, but I don't and I'm sorry. I'm sorry.. I think that my parents should have more faith before deciding all of this, for my Mom to get a job, my Dad might be able to find one before summer ends.. Hopefully. I'm really tired I didn't sleep at all. I've been up since yesterday. I'm just not feeling good about anything right now, Emily is starting to get to me, Chad is distant.. I just.. I don't feel like doing anything. My parents are super stressed. I just feel like it's all my fault, even though it isn't. I love you, and I know that You're with me even though I don't feel You right now. You're here. You're here. I can't forget that. Even though I don't feel you, You're here. Yesterday was youth group, pretty much the same things happened, except Amelia is believing Emily's rumors now. Nobody cares. I didn't have any friends to begin with anyway. I'm trying my best to cover up my sorrow, I shouldn't bother anyone. I know that I'm not bothering You though. Also, Chad kind of talked to me, just a small "hey", but I could tell that he wanted to say something else though.. Well.. Goodnight. Love You

~Chloe E. Almond