More Than A Memory

Chapter one

Here is the first chapter.....PLEASE PLEASE give me feed back......This chapter was hard to write.....and don't know what I want to do with it yet. I want at least 20 chapters....:)

"Josh do you know where my cell phone charger is?"

Josh pulled the covers up over his head to try to block out her voice. She never could find anything that belonged to her. It annoyed the hell out of him. Especially since it balls am, and she was asking him where something he had no idea where it would be located. All he wanted to do was sleep. But he knew that she would never shut the fuck up till she found it. He would just ignore her until she came in and yelled at him.

"Josh.....did you hear me? I asked you if you knew where my cell charger was?" she said as she came into the room.

"It is where ever you left it." He said throwing the covers down and looking in her direction.

She sighed. "Can you get your lazy ass up and try to help me find it."

"Will you leave me alone if I do?" He asked

"Yes because I will be able to go to work then, and you won't see me to you get back from the studio at god knows what hour. You need to work through the day time like a normal person Josh. This staying out all night and sleeping all day is not good for our relationship."

"Don't start on that. You knew damn well I worked long hours and was away a lot when you got involved with me."

She rolled her eyes. "I know.....but come on Josh you never have time for me, for us. Whenever you get a break from work you have those little monsters who take up all of your time. We never get to spend time together anymore. I don't like it."

He looked at her, running his hand through his hair. "Those little monsters are my sons, I barley get to see them ever because their mother moved them half away across the country five years ago. They come first in my life." He said sitting up fully in bed and pulling on his jeans. "And as far as I knew we were just two people who liked each other's company, and have sex."

"Josh we have been together for five years, it is about time you made a commitment."

Josh climbed out of bed pulling on a pair of jeans, and the first tshirt he could find. "Look Cassie we are not in a relationship, yes we have been fooling around and having fun for the past five years, but you know I see other people. I am not in love with you nor will I ever be in love with you." He said cooly. He walked past her and out to the kitchen, he patted Bennie on her soft head on his way by. He opened the fridge and took a swig out of the milk carton. He stood there and waited for Cassandra to freak out at him, like she always did. She would yell and scream, throw stuff at him and leave telling him she never wanted to see him again. He was bracing himself for it. All he heard was silence. He looked up at her, wiping the milk off of his mouth.

She sighed. "I just thought that after l this time you may have developed feelings for me. You know I love you Josh." Cassandra said softly. "I thought after time you would let go of your demons and love again."

"I forgave you for ruining my life." He said sharply. "You took everything away from me that I loved dearly. It is your choice to have stayed with me all these years; you know I will never love you. I care about you, we have fun together, and great sex but that is where it ends."

"You are a fucking jerk Josh." She said trying to fight back the tears, she turned and left the room.

He could hear her thrashing shit around in the bed room. More than likely packing her shit yet again, to only return in a few weeks. She always came running back to him. He always let her back in. He knew he shouldn't but she ruined his life, and by him keeping her strung along, he was slowly ruining her life as well. She was stupid enough to keep coming back for more. He had promised her nothing.