So, do any of you have anxiety? In any form? I do. I have SAD.
When I get around people, I start to freak out. But I don't show it. It's all internal. My head starts pounding as well as my heart. I feel as if I'm about to pass out. It's not very pleasant. There is one person that I know that can make it better when I start to feel like this.
He tells me that I'll be okay. That it doesn't matter, and that he's here for me.
But I told him that I'm bi, and now he doesn't talk to me as much...
And now when I have an anxiety attack I don't know what to do, because I know that he's not there to fix it. That I have to deal with it on my own.
Wednesday nights are the worst. I go to church on these nights, and there are so many people in my youth group. So many. And every time I go, I have an anxiety attack and I'm in a living hell.
But I still go.
So I can see my friends.
So I can see him.
In hopes that maybe things will get better.
But I don't know.
Because in all honesty,
I don't think that they will...
