Unfaithful

Sanction

You know what?

I cried over and over again, thinking of how near we are, yet we are so far apart. We never laughed to our inside jokes anymore. We never looked in each other's eyes like we used to. That ghost of a laugh is long gone. All those memories that I try to keep inside, dissipated one by one, replaced by bitter and harsh stares, cold arguments, and wishful thinking.

Just maybe, it's sanction for what I have done in the past. I played around too much, breaking hearts and souls in the process. Reclaiming what was once mine, although in the end, you are not mine, it seems, from the very beginning. We are just a couple of robotic program, filled to work with each other, yet not dependable to the other.

I used to cry because I think I loved you. Nowadays, I cried because I'm hurt and I just want to let it go. Yet, as much as I try, things does not seem to fall into place. We argued, and we won't apologise to each other like we used to. We just let it be, and eventually we will forget the pain. It seems convenient that way, until I realised that means that there is no spark left for us to ignite the usual blaze that we have.

Just maybe, I am one unlucky person, for being cursed with the jinx of love. I fall for people every single time, yet it seems like all I ever did was carving my own name on a single lonely silver ring, which I wore myself, pretending that someone slipped it into my finger while I was not looking.