Fate or not?- Konnor Fan Fic

Aftermath

I remember dropping the note in the mailbox of Connor's apartment because I was afraid to do it face to face which you could call me a coward for not wanting to do it face to face but I was scared at what would happen. I remember I got a text later in the day from Connor and he asked me to meet up with him in the park later that afternoon because we needed to talk. And at this, I was really nervous and scared. To be honest I didn't even know what to expect. I opened my heart up to Connor and it was one of the first times I had since I broke up with Andrea. When I was driving there, I knew something wasn't right and as I drew closer, the feeling of dread started to fill my body and as hard as I tried to push it away, the feeling stuck and it made me feel really uneasy and unsure about what was about to happen. And in a way, what happened next changed a lot. I remember every word Connor said to me. Every. Single. Word. Each word felt like piercing arrows as he talked and the more he talked, the deeper each arrow went. I hated that feeling and as I remember this now, I can feel that beginning to happen and I want it to stop but I need to continue to explain what exactly happen. He said to me:

"Kian. This is hard for me to say and even harder for me to say to someone like you. First off before I do continue, I care about you Kian and you're an amazing person and I don't want you to hate me for this but I need to tell you where my heart is and where my head is before anything else further happens. It has been awesome getting to know you a lot better these past few months and it's something I will cherish in a way but to be honest, I don't feel the same way as you. And to be honest, I haven't for a while. I know we had that night and I really enjoyed it but I don't think it is fair to let this continue pass where we stand today because it will just tear me a part and it will just break you and I will hurt you. I know this is not the answer you wanted to exactly hear and I am really sorry for that but I don't like you in the same way you like me. I like you and cherish you as a friend but that's it. I just can't lead you on to watch you fall and break apart. It's not fair to you as a person and it's not fair to me as well. I really am sorry Kian and I really do hope you know that but I think for the moment, we're done because it is unfair to both of us to continue something that is not reality. I'm sorry Kian and as much as it breaks me a part, we are finished."