Alone I'm Broken, But With You I'm Complete [ A Paul love and Imprint story]

Chapter 3 How it started

                                                     Chapter 3 How it started

I woke up gasping for breath, hugging myself for the little comfort it would give me, tears streaming down my face, as it all came back to me, and it felt so real, like I was going through it all over again.

                         FLASHBACK FROM MY NIGHTMARE/MEMORY

" Rach, I told you, I told you we would have a day just you and me, just like I promised" My younger mother Sarah laughed while she told me so many years ago, her eyes gleaming with happiness as her black, shiny, wavy hair swayed down to her waist, just like it used to. I was eight years old at the time, I had the same face but younger with her chocolate brown eyes, with my black curly hair, we had gone to the cinemas in port angles, because I had badgered her for ages about a day just her and me, no annoying siblings to steal hr away, just her and me.

The scene changed, and I saw her delighted face, with her joyful chocolate brown eyes staring at me, but it suddenly changed to anger and disappointment.

"This is all your fault Rachel Black".

"No mum I- "

"How could you do that, how could you it to your own mother, your supposed to be the oldest, the matures, the responsible one, but most importantly the trustworthy one"

"I am I -" I said helplessly.

" You are a disgrace to this family, you've caused so much pain,for your dad, for Jake, and for Becky"

"I didn't mean for this to happen I,I,I-"

"it's all your fault, just look at what you've done"

The scene changed but this time it was a memory that had haunted me since day one. I saw it all over again, all..of…it. I was so terrified of it all, how could I be that heartless, how could any one be.

                END OF FLASHBACK FROM MY NIGHTMARE/MEMORY

I've never forgotten the way she looked at me the way her eyes once held happiness to them being lifeless, it just isn't something you forget.

I sat there hugging myself, thinking over everything letting my mind wander, which is never a good idea, because they always end up being depressing thoughts.

                                                                      FLASHBACK

"Tom, Tom, are you in here" I said as I opened his dorm room. I was at college, in my second year out of the three years. I always found it hard to trust anyone, but for some reason I had felt like, I could trust Tom, but that had just been another one of my biggest mistakes. Tom Ripen is his name, he had light blue eyes, with light shady blond hair, with an average body structure. He always had a friendly expression on his face, and always seamed to be there for me, but that was fake he never cared, in fact it was properly me that cared and was there for him, well I only did for the first year and a bit. Well like I said anyway, I find it hard to trust people, so you can imagine how surprised I was when he asked me out on are second term of are first year, and I said yes, but we had been happily dating since today. We had planned to meet up, but I couldn't find him anywhere. So I went to his dorm he shares with a guy named Dylan Mont, I had only ever met him once he had grey eyes with black spiky hair, I didn't really know much about him except that he was very popular with the girls. I gasped, because there I found Tom full on doing it with my only close friend Katy. Katy had dark brown hair with a bit of red in it, with beautiful light green eyes she was the only other person I trusted, but her I honestly thought for once, that it wasn't a mistake to that maybe just maybe she was a true friend, but obviously from the sight in front of me she wasn't, I was wrong I could never trust the right people, it would always end up me getting hurt no matter what either of us do.