Alone I'm Broken, But With You I'm Complete [ A Paul love and Imprint story]

Chapter 6 Could Never Forgive Myself

Chapter 6 Could Never Forgive Myself

OH MY GOD!

LILA!

OH GOD JACOB

THAT RUDDY IDIOT!

Poor Lila.

It was Jacob, who did it to her. Well kind of. He is so stupid. You see this is what happened. They were best friends closer than I have ever seen any one, they were meant to be and like I said before the town knew that. But when they started high school, he ditched her, said awful things to her, played her many times and much more. From what I knew and from what my dad had told me, she had gone through a very hard time.

It was painful when I heard. Because it was right what she had said, she was like my sister. Like a little sister, that I cared deeply for. Because she was so close with Jacob and that they had a special boned with each other which is very hard to find with anyone. It made Dad think of her as another daughter and me and Becky to care for her like a sister and even more when we got to know her. Me and her were the closest if you exclude Jacob of corse. If Jacob wasn't around and she needed someone to talk to, she would always come to me more than the others.

I hugged her with tears in my eyes. I felt so bad about what happened, not talking sense into Jacob. I wanted to give him such a slap for treating her the way he did. But the most important thing is, I wanted to give myself that slap to, for not being there to comfort my little sister when she needed it most.

"I'm so sorry" I said still hugging her.

"It's not your fault" she said it was clear in her voice that she didn't really want to talk about it.

"I should have come home, should have come and comforted you" I said gripping her tighter.

"You're here for now and that's all that's matters " she told me confidence and happiness clear in her voice as she said it.

"I've missed you Lila" I said moving my arms from around her.

But she wouldn't move, just hugged me tighter. "Oh you've got no idea how much I've missed you Rachel" she said tears slipping down her face and onto my shoulders and arms. "Too much" she said barely a whisper that I nearly didn't hear her and I don't think I was actually supposed to hear what she said.

I put my arms back around her and hugged her just as tightly.

She is my little sister and always will be.

I could never forgive myself for what I had done to her and what I am still doing to her.

To my little sister!

Who does that to their little sister!

I should have done something!

But this will never change the fact. That after all they've been through that they still belong with each other. Because even if Jacob left her, I don't think he really did leave her in his heart. Because even if Jacob had changed in every one eyes.

Which maybe he had.

He could never change the way he felt about her. There is just absolutely no doubt he could for Lila Young - Fuller.

Never ever!

Because they will always be

Together forever !

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We stayed like that for a while just thinking about the past and the present. But eventually I had to go since Dad and Jacob would be getting up soon. But I promised to come and see her or we could meet up some where so that we could catch up and hang out. I never offered for her to come to mine in case Jacob was in, knowing she didn't want to be around him anymore than she had to now a days. Were as before it was as far as opposite could go.

When I finally did get home, I started to unpack the shopping putting it where I assumed it goes. Then I started to cook the famous old English Breakfasts for us all to eat.

"I SMELL BACON!" suddenly a voice shouted next to me picking me up, then spinning me around and then putting me back down.

I screamed as it give me such a fright. I turned around to glare at the person who scared the heck out of me.

It was Jake.

"YOU BLOODY IDIOT JACOB YOU SCARED THE HELL OUT OF ME" I shouted angrily. That I started to hit him with my hand, but not hard enough to hurt him. Yet not that gentle that it didn't make an impact either. But it was weird, since I was certain that most of the pain came to me on my arms instead of him.

"Rach stop, stop it, okay I'm sorry alright please just stop, your gunner get yourself hurt" he said full of worry grabbing my hands and making me stop.

"Fine" I said reluctantly. And then it changed to surprise "What you doing up? " he had never been an early riser and even when I was at college, when I rang home at 10 in the morning or something he would never be up. Which is why I was curious with what he was doing up so early.

He laughed "same as you." he said with humour. Then carrying on "I woke up, so I got dressed, brushed my teeth -"

"Don't be an idiot Jake, you know what I meant" I said interrupting him.

"Yeah I know what you meant, I got up about an hour ago and went for a jog. I left a note on the fridge and you were here, when I got back " he said confidingly.

"ermm, okay" I said not believing him. Because I got up exactly an hour ago and he wasn't up and there wasn't a note or anything on the fridge door saying he had gone for a jog, like he said he had done.

"No I did really, I did." he said trying to get me to believe him, as if he knew I didn't.

I moved back to where I had cooked breakfast and started to carry on. Jake followed looking rather amused and a bit sad.

"Set the table, will yah" I said.

" Sure, sure" He said distracted.

A though minutes later the table was set out with cutlery, plates with a full English breakfast on it, empty glasses and with a full carton of pure orange juice in the middle of the table. As I was just about to go and wake up Dad, he came through the door looking surprised probably to see Jacob up so early just as I were, also probably the fact of how I had cooked English breakfasts, since my guess is that he hasn't had one in a while.

"Morning, Dad" I say coming closer and giving him a kiss on the cheek cheerfully.

"Morning Rachel, Jacob" he said tiredly.

Jacob was to busy and distracted to reply as he was already onto his fourth helpings of breakfast. Except for morning with delight and giving me complements about my cooking. "Ohh Rach this so, so good" and many others as well.

"I keep forgetting how much he eats" I said chuckling.

"He sure does eat a lot" he agreed chuckling along with me.

"Hey, I'm a growing man" he suddenly defended himself.

"More like a fattening pig" I said back. Which set both me and dad off

laughing.

He through a waffle at me. "Shut up" he mumbled

I laughed picked up the waffle he through at me and happily took a bite of it.

As I looked around at my family, I realized I could never forgive myself for what I had done to them. Leavening Jake on his own, for him to help dad on his own and so many others to both of them. I could never forgive myself for abandoning them.

Thank you for reading. I hope you liked it. I'm very sorry for any spelling or vocabulary mistakes. I'll try not to take to long to write the next chapter. Please, please, please review and tell me what you think.

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