Alone I'm Broken, But With You I'm Complete [ A Paul love and Imprint story]

Chapter 7 What can I Handle

Chapter 7 What can I Handle

"So Sue's really excited to see yah" Dad spoke, while I was washing the dishes from breakfast.

Sue was another close person to the family, because her husband uncle Harry was an elder with my Dad except dad was head of the elders. So I was at their house and saw them a lot because of the meetings and other things. But also the fact that Harry was friends with my dad as well, and he goes fishing a lot, with Charlie.

FLASHBACK FROM MEMORY

"Rachel come on, we gotta go" Dad said trying to hind the truth in a cheerful voice.

I got up sadly and made my way towards the door.

It was a few months after the death of my mother, and things were slowly becoming better.

Very slowly.

It was a few weeks before me and Rachel decided to hide our true feelings and pretend that we were fine and try to help out around the house and to take care of Jake and my dad the best we could.

We were going to Anty Sue's and Uncle Harry's since the elders were doing there usual meeting. But it was different this time, because it was the first elders meeting with out mum there. Who would be usually in the kitchen with Sue and the other wife's of the elders, who would watch us and the other kids playing in the garden.

When we finally got their I went straight to the back to the garden not wanting to talk to anybody. An I went to the old swing.

"Hey Rach, you wanna go and play with Leah" Sue said standing next to me, but bent other so she could talk to me.

I shock my head.

"You wanna come in the kitchen and we could bake a cake for everyone" she said trying to get me to be social.

Since my mother's death. I didn't talk that much to anyone anymore.

I just didn't.

I don't know why, but it had something to do with her death. And for some reason I just couldn't strike up a conversation with anyone back then.

I shook my head again just wanting to go home and lock myself in the safety of no people's pity and concern in my room.

"Rachel listen sweetie, I know your sad and suffering because of your mother's death. But please come an talk to us. Don't be alone, don't suffer in silence." Then adding "Don't leave us in the dark Rachel, tell us what's going on in that clever head of yours. " Then she said desperately "We want to help you, let us help you"

I shock my head then muttered "I'm fine"

"You sure, because you don't seem it"

"Sure, sure"

"Alright then, but you coming to help cook that cake whether you like it or not. Come on it'll be fun." she said takeing me by the hand and dragging me to make the cake in the kitchen with Sue and the other people in the kitchen.

But that never meant I'd be able to talk to them a lot.

Even if I wanted to.

END OF FLASHBACK FROM MEMORY

I shuck my head to get back to the present from memories of when I was going through I really hard time and replied.

"Really" I said trying to sound surprised. But really I was freaking out in my head. I didn't want a big deal of me coming back to visit.

"Oh yeah, she missed you a lot as well as us. So she organised a little get together at her house at three o'clock as a welcome back" he said cheerfully.

"Dad, I'll go it's just I don't want aunty Sue to make a big deal of me coming back " I told him trying to be considerate.

"She just happy you've come home" he paused before saying "we all are." he said a bit disappointed in me.

"It's the same with anyone, I just hate people making big deals out of things for me " I said being honest.

"Or anything" Jake said helpfully as he suddenly appeared and went through our cupboards. "oh come on Dad, don't look  at me like that you know what she's like" he said as dad give him an annoyed look.

"Stay out of this Jacob" he said about to lose it. Which was weird since Dad was like the most patient person I have ever met.

"Dad I know, I don't see you much. And I get how much you care or love me, but please don't try to show it by making a big deal of me coming home. Please I can't handle that" I said trying to get him to understand.

"Well than Rachel, what can you handle? Because it looks like you can't handle your own family doesn't it." He said struggling to keep his temper in. "Look Rachel Black, we barely see you alright, so when you do come home. I am going to make a big deal out of it, because you're my daughter and I don't get to see you enough."

A horn beeped outside.

It was Charlie as he came in saying.

"You ready to go Billy"

"Yeah Charlie" he said unreadable, getting his things as he made his way towards the door.

"Dad I -"

He ignored me wheeling himself out of the room. I walked to the widow and watched as Charlie helped him into Charlie's smart looking police car and drove away.

I stood there just looking out the widow, ashamed of myself.

The main reason I didn't want people to make a big deal was because I was already feeling guilty and ashamed of myself for leaving la push and this was just adding more to it.

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