Ghost (Ziall)

~Chapter 14~

Chapter 14~Hopeless actions

~Niall's POV~ (surprise!)

I've been watching Zayn all the time during the last three months. I didn't go to that never ending darkness, but I just turned into... Well, I don't know. Nobody can see or hear me. Not even Zayn. I can see myself, but I can see through myself. 

I can't touch anything anymore. I can't talk. I can't walk. All I can do is float around now, like the wind. 

In the last three months I followed Zayn everywhere he went. I followed him to the cemetery every day and listened how he would talk to me. I tried to send him a sine that I'm still here, but it just wouldn't work. 

Worst thing is, I felt everything he felt. I could feel it when he got a little bit happier as he talked to my gravestone. I could feel the sadness when he had to leave or when Liam stopped talking to him. I felt the tears he shed when he cried himself to sleep every single night and I felt the cuts he made when he killed himself and the happiness when he thought he would see me again. I still can feel the terrible pain and the narcotic effect of all the pills.

I was with him when he fainted and I know he saw me. His eyes focused on me just when he closed them. 

I'm still standing in the bathroom next to him. Tears are falling from my eyes, but disappear before they reach the ground. My mouth is forming his name in a silent scream, but no sound comes out. I wish I could talk right now. Or just do anything.

He didn't promise me to not kill himself when I was gone. He just promised me not to forget me. I didn't think about why he didn't said the other part, until I saw him write the letters. Then it hit me. He was planning on doing this all along. I don't know how I could have missed it. I'm so stupid. Maybe I could have done something to stop him. Now all I did was watch him while he was planning his suicide right under my nose.

Zayn is laying in a puddle of his own blood. I feel he's still alive, but he doesn't feel anything anymore. The pills are doing that to him. It's not too late to try to save him. 

I float to him and reach for him with my hands, but of course I can't touch him anymore. I try to scream his name. No use. Then an idea hits me.

As fast as I can I float to Liam's house. Maybe I can try to warn him. I don't know how yet, but it's my last chance. 

Five minutes later I arrive at his house. The special feeling in my heart tells me Zayn is still alive, but I can feel it fading away. 

I float straight through the front door and into Liam's room. He is sitting on his bed, doing his homework and chatting with Harry at his computer.

Okay what now? 

I try to scream at him, but of course no words come out. I sway my hand in front of his face, but he doesn't see me. Finally the frustration becomes to much for me and I swing my fist at his head, knowing that I wont hit him anyway.

But I was wrong. 

Yes, my fist went through his head, but after I did that he looks up with a confused look on his face. 

"Weird. I thought I closed the window." He mutters to himself and looks to the window which is closed. 

A smile appears on my face. He felt it! 

My excitement soon disappears when I realize that it won't help. He will just think it's the wind. Not about me trying to warn him. 

I sigh deep. I'm going to lose Zayn and there is nothing I can do about it. Tears start to fall down from my eyes again. I don't want him to die. He doesn't deserve to be like me. He still has his whole life in front of him. 

But I know it's to late for him. The feeling inside of me is disappearing. Maybe I just have to give up. 

"Niall?" A surprised voice suddenly says and I look up. Liam is starring surprised at me. 

"Can you see me?" I ask and I can hear my voice. 

"Well.. Yes are you Niall? Zayn's boyfriend?" He asks, but I don't answer him I just start rambling in panic.

"I don't have time for that. Zayn tried to kill himself, please help him."

Liam's eyes widen when I say that. He grabs his phone and starts running downstairs while dialing a number. I float after him, not noticing the figure that is standing in Liam's room, smiling.

When I catch up on Liam he's saying Zayn's adress in the phone and he jumps in his car. Then he mumbles a quick and puts away his phone. 

When we arrive he jumps out of his car and runs to the bathroom. He stops death in his tracks when he sees Zayn. Then he unfreezes and runs to Zayn, grabbing a bandage to stop the bleeding.  

As he made sure the bandage is okay he turns to me, but he doesn't see me anymore.

"Niall?" He asks and I try to speak again, but again, no words come out. 

Before Liam can say more, the paramedics run into the room.

Then everything goes fast. 

Paramedics push Liam out of the room. 

They lay Zayn on a stretcher and walk him to the ambulance.

Then they drive away, taking Zayn to the hospital.

Liam drives after them and I arrive at the hospital together with him.

I listen as he asks for Zayn.

I sit with him in the waiting room when we wait for news.

I feel the feeling disappear completely

and then the doctor comes in.

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Sorry it's so short, but hey, an update is an update right?

Now, did anyone expected this chapter to be in Niall's POV (Except for you carrotangel)

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xx Lisa xx