I Will Make You Love Again (Hoshi x reader)

Chapter 11

Crystal's POV

I woke up blinded by a white light. I took some time to adjust to the lighting. When I did, I realised the drastic change in environment. This was definitely not my room or anyone's house. I heard a beeping sound by my side. I looked over to my left hand and saw a drip. However, when I turned the other side, I noticed my right hand, wrapped in white. I winced in pain when I tried to move it. I could not remember what had happened.

I heard the door click and a nurse walked in. She had a calm smile on her face. She greeted me and asked me some questions regarding my health. Shortly after she left, the door creaked open again. An all too familiar man entered and his presence made me feel anger and disappoint. The sight of him caused me to recall the events leading up to my hospitalisation. I refused to look at him when he walked up right beside my bed.

"C-Crystal? Thank goodness you've woken up. You had been asleep for a week! I missed you," he engulfed me in a hug.

"What are you doing here, Soonyoung? Don't you have someone else to attend to? I'm a worthless being anyways. You should've left me to die," I spoke monotonously and gently pushed him away.

"But I didn't leave you to die. I'm here by your side. You are not worthless Park Crystal. I love you. I always will. Sorry if I made you doubt me. Doubt our relationship. I never meant for this to happen. If I never loved you, I would have just left you at home and never came back. I would have dumped you then and there for another girl. And I would not be here, by your side, convincing you that I'm still here for you and you are the only one for me. You are worth the week of tears, the lack of sleep and all the worry in the world." he let words flow out his mouth. Who knows if the words he spoke were legit?

"How would I know u stayed the whole week at the hospital? You could have only came the day I woke up. Who knows if you will cheat on me? I do not want my heart to break again. I'm sorry but I don't think I can accept you. It's for my own good. I gave you just one chance and it's gone now," I regretfully had to say. I just could not look into his eyes.

"Please, Crystal, I'm not lying. Please take me back. Accept me back into your life. I will still stick to my goal of making you love again. I-I love you, please.. " tears welled up in Hoshi's eyes.

He tightened the hug and sobbed. A small part of me felt like taking him back but it was probably the demons talking. I mumbled a sorry. He was a nice guy but if I did not stop our relationship, who knows what would happen. Jack was a nice guy too but he proved it wrong a year later.

With my free hand, I unclasped the necklace around my neck. Hoshi pulled away and stared at me in disbelief. I extended out my hand that held the necklace. The half a heart that had half of our ship name "CryShi" on it. I did not need a man to complete me. I'm a whole on my own.

"No, k-keep it. That's all I ask. I-If you really want us to break up.. F-fine, as long as you're happy. Just know I still love you," he forced a smile although his eyes showed pure sadness.

He gave me one last hug and kissed my forehead. He turned away and I watched his back, walking away from me. He stopped at the door and turned around.

"Just so you know, I will still keep to my goal of making you love again. I won't give up. Goodbye, Park Crystal," he managed a smile and a brave front.

With that, Hoshi walked out of the room and my life.

I lay on the white bed, staring at the ceiling and reflected on what had happened just now. I felt a small pain in my heart. It was an unusual pain. I lifted my injured hand slowly and placed it over where my heart was. WIthout notice, a tear escaped my left eye and slid down my cheek. Why did I feel so.. guilty? Disappointed? Regretful? No. This is not right. I definitely had done the right thing. I was saving myself from anymore heartbreak. I was reasonable. Another tear slid down my cheek. I heard footsteps and quickly wiped it away.