I Will Make You Love Again (Hoshi x reader)

Chapter 56

Hoshi's POV

"Haish... I hope I don't regret this..." I shook my head.

Seungcheol tilted his head and got me to carry on. He had an encouraging smile, hoping I made a logical and responsible decision. He really looked out for us. He deserves an award for taking care of all 13 of us, including himself.

"I choose Crystal. I pictured myself losing each of them and I almost cried when I thought of losing Crystal. She was the one who stabilised my life and taught me about love. I don't take care of myself that well and Crystal's there to watch out for me. She's always been there for me. Eunji... She could have changed a lot. WIth how cruel she was to break Crystal and me up, I can't date someone like that. She has to let it go. I will apologise to her for breaking the promise," I decided.

The leader pat and rubbed my back and told me that I had made a good decision. He confirmed with the others on my decision and they cheered. They really liked Crystal. She got along with them and knew how to cheer them up.

That night, we tore the pages in half and recycled the paper. The parts not made of paper were thrown away without notice of the maknaes. By then, it was getting late so I dismissed myself in order to get home before Crystal sleeps. On my way home, I sent a text to Eunji telling her my decision. She had to understand. If I met her again, who knows what trick she would pull on me next.

I rushed home to see Crystal eating instant ramen while watching anime on her laptop. She heard me enter and only gave me a short glance before turning her attention to the 2D volleyball players on her laptop screen. I sat beside her and she continued ignoring me. I took her ramen and placed it on the table and shut her laptop. She gave me a disapproving look.

She did not speak a word. She simply looked at me with a stoic expression. I took a deep breath.

"Look, about earlier. Let me explain, please. I was meeting Eunji to discuss our feelings and settle things. So.. you know she had feelings for me in middle school, right? Well..." I dragged on and scratched the back of my neck.

She crossed her arms and leaned back. She was still silent. Silence was really a killer.

"D-don't kill me for what I'm about to say. Well back then, I also had feelings for her and sort of promised her that we would be together when we were done with our studies. I clearly screwed up," I admitted.

"So that's what this was about, huh?" Crystal finally spoke, pulling out a picture frame from under the table.

I froze up and my throat went dry. She found it. She found the picture. I hope she did not misunderstand.

"You guys look cute together here. Your arms around her waist and her kissing you on the cheek like that. Such a happy occasion. And to think YOU SCREWED IT UP! Are you going back to her? If you are, I don't mind. I will not stand in the way of what would make a nice love story. Yeah, she's been horrible but she had her reasons I assume-" she rambled on.

Stop. Stop. No. What is she saying? She is doing it again. She is thinking down that path. I felt my heart ache with every word that come out of her mouth.

"I WOULD NEVER DATE A GIRL WHO DOES SUCH THINGS TO YOU!" I stood up abruptly.

She had a shocked expression on her face. Before she could say anything, I continued on talking.

"What are you even saying?! Do you even realise the things you are saying? I love you and you only! Yes, I broke my promise but fate led me to you. I may have forgotten her but I met someone better fit for me. If not, why would I be with you? Would I even have met you in the first place? Even if I had another chance, I would still choose you. Eunji can't give me what you have given me all this while," I barely paused in between my sentences.

"Maybe fate also planned a path for you to her. You may claim so, but we can decide what we want to do. I'm sure you have feelings for her deep inside. I will not be the reason why people can't be happy," she said otherwise.

Crystal was still not convinced by whatever I said. She was quite stubborn. She seemed calm and leaned back. Does she even realise she would lose me if she let me go ahead with Eunji?

"You made my life stable, you took good care of me, you respected and understood me. I knew you would always be there and you get along with the members. Isn't that enough to make me stay? Isn't that enough to convince you that I do not want Eunji? I want you. S-stop this Crystal.. Y-you don't want to lose me. Why are you saying such things? P-please. You need to understand," I stuttered and almost teared up.

I tried to get her to comprehend what this could potentially lead to. I tried my best to tell her I only had feelings for her. I did not want to go to Eunji.

"D-don't fight back. You have no idea how important you are to me. Snap out of it. I am meant for you. Eunji is supposed to find someone else. The way she is now, all cruel and constantly plotting against us. I don't like girls like that. Don't even be considerate this once! I know you are a kind soul but, I am better off with you. You need to fight the conscience in your head. I am fighting too. It is ok to be selfish every once in awhile. It is ok to fight for the one you love. Eunji can do all she wants but we'll always be meant to be. I'll always love you," I tried very hard to convince her.

She was silent and looked down. I had no idea what she was thinking now that her face was out of my sight. I saw her fists clench before opening then clenching again.

"Please, Crystal. You are not in the way of anyone's love story. This is OUR love story. I want to build my love story with you..." that was all I could say.

She remained quiet. She looked down at her lap. She was probably deep in thought. I decided it was best I let her think and went to bed first. Just as I dismissed myself and turned around, she reached out an arm and grabbed my wrist. I turned back. She looked up, tears forming in her eyes. The moment she looked at me, the tears that had been held back the past few minutes fell and streamed down her face.

"I want to build a love story with you too," she managed to say.

She could hardly say anything as she was suffocating in tears and instead, got up and hugged me. I rubbed her head and kissed the top of her head. She clung on to me, not letting go until she stopped crying.

"I'm sorry I went to met Eunji without telling you. I didn't want you to jump to conclusions. Actually, I tried to hide my past relationship with Eunji from you incase you felt hurt. I did not want to upset you. I'm sorry for hiding this from you. Just, please. Don't ever sacrifice yourself for my happiness because that would be an ironic move," I spoke softly in her ear.

"How is it ironic?" she lifted her head and asked me.

"Because that would be sacrificing my happiness for happiness. That doesn't make sense. Well, what I'm trying to say is no one else will ever make me as happy as you make me. I love you for that," I squeezed her as she blushed harder.

"I love you too," she managed to breath out from my bone-crushing hug.