Love To Hate Me

Black rose dying

He looks at me and says," Yeah?"
I smile at him and say," Why do you like me?"
Craig laughs and says," You would have to be here all day for me to tell you that. I am going to get some breakfast. You sticking around? "
I blush and sit up on the bed. Craig starts to get dressed and Ruffles through his long black hair. I stare at him as I start to find some of his clothes to wear. Craig smiles and starts to run his hands through his thick black hair. I find a pair of basketball shorts and a large Used shirt. Craig laughs at how big his clothes are on me and says," I bet Andy is looking for you again. You are about to get a bunch of questions when you get home. I just got one can I kiss you?"
I blush and say," You are so adorable. You never really have to ask. You are one of my best friends. I am so happy that you are on this tour."
Craig hugs me tightly and peck my lips. I smile and say," Damn Craig. So fucking attractive in every way. Fuck well I have to go before Andy flips out again." I head out the door with his clothes and my phone. Craig's smile fades and opens the door for me. I peck his check and say," I'll text you."
I walk off in the distance and hear his whistle at me. I laugh and head on my way to get chewed out by protective best friend.
I walk up to Andy and say," What's with the sad face?" I watched as he stared in to the empty stadium. I think I know what he was so sad about. Even though Juliet hated me, he wanted to get her back. He knew if Juliet knew what happened between back in the day, she would not come back on this black tour bus. I tap his bony should and say," Andy! Hello!"
He turns and says," Yeah? What's up?" He looks me straight in my eyes. I remember everything we had gone through, it had been so long that he stared directly in to my eyes with looking away in shame instantly.
I smile and say," What's wrong? I was just at Craig's. He's really sweet you know?"
Andy touches my shoulder and says," I know. I just kind of miss Juliet. Maybe we should talk about what we were back then? Maybe I should tell her that we were once a thing."
My face saddens at I think about what happened when me and Andy were a thing. I look down and say," She really wouldn't want me around. I just can't. I have to go."
Andy reaches out for my hand as I feel my throat tightening. I felt like I was holding in too many emotions. I walk off as tears start to fall down my face messing up the eye liner I had put on. I stare at my picture on my phone and find a seat at a near by bench. I look at the time and think I still have five hours before this concert area opens. I skim through my photos seeing all the pictures Ronnie and I have taken over all that time we were together. Maybe I should go find him? I put my phone in a pocket in the basketball shorts I stole from Craig. I walk through the arena passing band members left and right. I try to choke back the tears as I look for Ronnie when I find the Falling In Reverse's bus. I knock on the door and it was answered by a handsome short British man politely saying," Who are you? Can I help you? I am Jacky by the way."
I wipe my face knowing that the eye liner is probably all over my face. I say," Hey Jacky, my name is Ashley. I am actually looking for Ronnie. I am his ex girlfriend."
His beautiful smile pokes through and he says,"  He is actually in the back," he moves out from the door and motions me to come inside. I smile and nod as I walk in the descent sized bus. Jacky smiles and says," It's really big huh? Definitely an improvement from where Ronnie was staying before. Do you want to grab you a drink?"
I laugh and say," Quite a charmer you are. Yes it is the best improvement. Yes please. I will take anything. If you couldn't tell I was crying for like fifteen minutes before I got here. "
Jacky goes to say something when I heard what I had always feared when Ronnie and I were together which was loudly groaning and moaning from his bedroom. All my emotions started to boil as I started to get the courage to stand up and go confront him like I should have done in the past. Jacky must have seen the anger boiling on my face because he reached out for my hand.
He set my Mountain Dew on the wooden table in the small kitchen in the bus. Jacky British voice broke me out of my tunnel vision as he says," I really don't know you all that ,but Ï can tell you don't want to see that. You can go back there if you want ,but I think you wouldn't like what you would see."
I broke from his hand on my arm and stormed back to the room where the moaning and groaning was from and saw Ronnie's body slamming in some whore that he probably met at the concert.
I spoke up breaking the silence by saying," I guess thinks never fucking change huh Ronnie?"
Ronnie quickly jerks up and says," Ashley, it's not what it looks like."
I sharply remark," Oh? Really? Then what the fuck is it Ronnie? I was coming here for some comfort ,but I guess everyone is right about you? Just go on with your fucking life! I am done being played by you," I storm out of the bus slamming the door behind a shocked Jacky that overheard the whole confrontation...
Cliffhanger for you all